chalsia

there must be something wrong with me

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, 11-18-2008 at 08:46 PM (3488 Views)

So, i joined here in July.. baby steps i promised myself.. reading and learning i wanted to do. Integrate the knowledge from here and go to munches.. sorta find the balance of what i wanted, what i was searching for.
And yet .. nothing happened. yes i started to speak with some people, thought about getting more serious with one, but it did not happen. i was not for him. maybe i'm getting anxious maybe i need more patience. Maybe things are simply not meant to be for me. Perhaps i'm simply depressed, perhaps i simply not good enough for anyone. I do not want to be like this, i do not want a pity party for myself, but right now i'm sad and lost and wish with all my heart that i had someone.. someone to serve and please, someone to confide in, someone to care for, someone to belong to. Is that so much for a girl to want and dream for?

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gypsiecowboy - 11-18-2008 09:07 PM
chalsia

you jump to conclusions and misinterpret and yet, somehow, I still want to get to know you closer and better and show you who you are and who you can be.

I am waiting, not just hanging around doing nothing you understand. But in the middle of everything else, I am waiting - for you to remember and realize and remember that for any relationship to work, both sides have to work at it. one thing you MUST learn is to ask questions and explain yourself and what you are feeling before you let yourself be carried away, far away...

GypsieCowboy
H Dean - 01-06-2009 09:36 AM
How much do you expect and how soon? Connections don't jump up every day. Munches and socials are great except for one major thing...people there are either out and looking or out and showing off. If they are showing off they are with someone and probably not worth bothering with and if they are looking they are likely to leap where looking would be more appropriate.

Stop looking - get comfy in your own skin - build a shrine to H. Dean or stake out a plot of land and grow corn. I like corn. The main thing is - stop the hunt and the deer will come within rifle range.