Tried the rape fantasy for the first time...

...and loved it! I've been wanting it rougher and rougher lately (haven't figured out why yet) but I have been too embarrassed to ask for anything more than what we usually do. Saturday night I got really drunk. I'm a horny drunk anyway and since my inhibitions were lowered, I wasn't afraid to ask for it. When he started fucking me, I started fighting back and saying no and begging him not to. My master knows just from my tone of voice whether no or ouch is serious or not, plus we have a safe word (that I've never had to use). So I was able to fight back hard and he just kind of rolled with it.

I could write for pages about what we did, but I'll just tell you after-effects. I have red marks on my neck from being choked, bruises on my nipples from pinching and biting, a knot on my hip from laying on that side, and random bruises from who-knows-what. I can't stop looking in the mirror - I LOVE when we leave marks!

I'm glad we were finally able to try this out. With any other person, I wouldn't have been able to do it. This showed me like nothing else that I can trust him to care for me, not to push me farther than I can handle, but to push me past what I thought I could do.

I'm glad it worked out for you (it's one of my personal favorite fantasies too). Imagine how much better it would've been if you'd been sober!

Sounds like you had a great time. This is a big fantasy of mine also.

big fantasy of mine too, I dont think I am quite ready for that one myself yet.. but its fun thinking about :D congrats im glad it went well for you

Hot hot hot. I'm glad you liked it. Please excuse me for commenting on the drinking, though. I hate it when the safety police burst my bubble. But. I'd just mention that, while it's lovely that you found a way to ask for what you wanted, maybe relying on the disinhibiting effects of alcohol is not totally reliable? It might be worth figuring out how to get what you want when you're sober.

More importantly, though, if you'd drunk enough to be disinhibited you'd drunk enough to have your other judgments be impaired. It's great that your partner can tell when you're engaged in resistance play and when you're serious, but alcohol use by either partner can interfere with sending or picking up those signals that something is seriously wrong, and it can certainly interfere with your OWN perception of whether something is wrong. Physically or emotionally. Nothing worse than waking up in the morning feeling like you've actually been raped.

So... Congratulations, I'm glad you got that hot scene, rock on girl, but maybe next time without the alcohol?

I'm so happy that worked out for you! It's a big fantasy of mine too (also I love asphyxiation) though usually it's the opposite and it's usually 'rape' for me and rarely not.

I agree with leah06, alchohol is a little dangerous when it comes to bdsm, you shouldn't be putting yourself into a state of mind when decision-making and motor-skills become inhibited.

I totally get the concern regarding alcohol and for 95% of people, alcohol + BDSM = bad. I have an unusual reaction to drinking, however, in that I am completely aware of what I'm doing and able to consent or refuse. I am just a lot more relaxed, horny, and uninhibited, which is a good thing for me. I always have the best sex when I'm drunk! We also make sure at least one person involved is sober so we can ensure we don't get overly rough.

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I totally get the concern regarding alcohol and for 95% of people, alcohol + BDSM = bad. I have an unusual reaction to drinking, however, in that I am completely aware of what I'm doing and able to consent or refuse. I am just a lot more relaxed, horny, and uninhibited, which is a good thing for me. I always have the best sex when I'm drunk! We also make sure at least one person involved is sober so we can ensure we don't get overly rough.

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LOL I am SO the same way! I'm one of the few ppl that no matter how much I drink I never black out, and I'm always aware of what I'm doing. There has never really been a time I can remember where I can blame alcohol on a stupid decisions.

I just relax, I'm really uptight most of the time, and drinking makes me goofy and funny and laugh a lot more than usual. I get uninhibited and horny and always have amazing sex, but I definitely become more aggressive in my want for sex, I end up asking for exactly what I want and how, and don't care who hears me...lol that's about it.

While I would never ask for anything dangerous, I would do what you did in a heartbeat :D I'm glad you had such a good time! :) I'm jealous! :pray:

wow... one of my favorite fantasies also... glad you had fun :)

I also fantasize about rape too. It wasn't til about 8 or 9 months ago when my Master tied me to the door, whipped me good for playing around and then as my punishment she proceeded to show me how to screw around. Placing a spreader bar at my ankles, she lifted me to my toes with a chain attached to my nipples. Making me stick my ass out she took me from behind, out of protest I was gagged and banged even hard unable to resist any bit because of the restraints. I really didn't expect it and was surprised when she left me there for several hours after taking what she wanted. Scolding me later on that evening for being a bad slave. Now when ever I am unsupervised I am locked and tied down. I think my Master loves to rape me because she does it several times monthly as my reminder to be true to her. :wave:

Sounds wonderful. I hope to work up to this with my Master one day as well. Thanks for sharing!

I wasn't going to say anything but really, a person should never be left locked/bound/restrained and then unsupervised; that is extremely dangerous because if something should happen there is no one there to help them. Also being bound for hours can be dangerous as well, if you don't have enough movement to keep blood flowing to the limbs you can cause serious problems. Not to say that you can't act out a lengthy bondage fantasy; just make sure to take the proper precautions first so that no one's health is in danger.