I have a hole
where my quiet place
should be

Everyone needs the locus
of calm and contentment
found inside

But mine is missing
I have never had one
that I recall

Always rushing to
and fro
in my mind
like traffic on
a resort road

Where is
What is
the quiet place

I wish to find one
I have tried

in sex
in love
in someone's lovely soul's duvet

But I always lose it
Because I don't have it
in me


I will go away from life and love
now

into the hole and
I will discover the
quiet place

Becasue
if I don't

This
cacophonous cavern
in my soul
will consume me.