Hello everyone. I don't know when I first realized I was so aroused by so many aspects of the BDSM lifestyle, or how young was when I started displaying masochist tendencies, but it was pretty young. Luckily my significant other is at least moderately interested and/or just desires to please me, and lets me "re-enact", so to speak, some of what's going on in my head, but like most newcomers, I'd guess, I want to learn more. I need to know if what I am feeling and wanting is something I can conceivably have without throwing away my whole life. I need to see and learn and communicate. And so here I am. Greetings.