i realize all the stuff surrounding this particular situation is none of my business nor do i probably even have the slightest idea of what's really going on.....

but i'm not blind. ever since returning to the forums after my couple months absence there has been rumors, whispers, circulating throughout the forums, chat rooms and other places. rumors about certain people "taking over", over stepping their boundaries, ruling like dictators.

i am not one to listen to rumors. i will not take one person's word over another until i see proof to back up anything that is said.

so upon hearing these rumors, i simply filed them away in my head and went about my normal business here, on the forums and in the chatroom.

but proof has been significantly shown and quite plainly so.

yet it doesn't seem like anything will be done.

i know it seems i'm talking in riddles, but there will be several who will know exactly what i'm talking about.

on the group i recently started, a local bdsm group, i started a thread promoting my favorite bdsm websites. this site, the library, was at the top of the list. i spoke of the open-mindedness and un-judgmental attitude of this site. how everyone was very welcoming to all and it was a great place to learn and grow.

i now feel almost like a liar for having said those things, because it's obviously not so.

i don't have a problem with the forums. not yet, no proof. but i will openly say i do have a problem with how the chat room is being run.

i realize that this thread may be deleted or closed. i realize that i may be banned. i don't care because what i have to say needs to be said.

i don't care that so and so owns the chat room. it pisses me off that this site would support such tyranny.

haveing a chat room where you must watch what you say because you could be banned at the whim of a single person..... what happened to freedom of speech?

i have no desire to be apart of a community where i have to watch what i say for fear of being banned simply because i pissed somebody off. nor do i desire to be apart of a community that would support such a thing.

i realize there are probably all kinds of details people will think i don't know about, but either way, it's blatantly obvious.

so as Flaming-Redhead said.... i no longer will be seen in the chat room. Nor will AzraelCoburn... i speak for Him in case this thread gets closed.

i have no desire to start anything or to "sling mud", but as i said.... what i'm saying simply needs to be said in a public forum.

cariad i'm sorry, but it needed to be said publicly.