I was thinking about a conversation I had with someone a few days ago, and trying to explain why the sheep thing to them. I've mentioned bits and pieces about it, but perhaps this will help a bit.

I have always considered sheep to be a very powerful symbolic thing. It relates to my faith as a Christian. In my submission, I have always felt very sheep-like, which can be defined as, bashful, meek, having a docility, willing to follow. Like the saying "lost sheep" I have often felt lost throughout my life. Being a Christian and having an interest in BDSM has been taught to me as wrong, not possible. (which as many of you can relate is total BS) Yet, being a sheep/ish fits with both sides of my life.

A few years ago I was going through some really rough times and tried to commit suicide. My therapist told me to find something that makes me smile. After getting out of the hospital, the one thing that made me smile, was seeing a sheep in the game i play. To this day, when I see a sheep, it helps cheer me up and reminds me of who I am, and where I have been in life.

I am a sheep in so many ways. I've been told that my love for sheep is a turn off, weird, creepy, wonderful, cute, and just plain childish. I cannot help those things. It's just a part of who I am.

I have decided to make this part of my life permanent. At some point in the future I will be getting a tattoo of a sheep on the inside of my left wrist. A reminder of how I almost gave up on life, a reminder of faith, submission, and who I am.

~brattyone, who should prolly just be called sheepishone