Yes, it seemed kind of slow on here so I'm posting some new threads. ..

I don't know why, but I feel compelled to state for the record that I LOVE GETTING FUCKED IN THE ASS.

It is becoming my absolute favorite thing in the world. . .(well, after hugging my children. . .)

It makes me feel full. It makes me feel dominated, opened up, overpowered and more truly submissive than anything else. It makes me so aware of my body. Strangely enough, it makes me feel beautiful and feminine.

And,yes, I love that it always always begins for me with a little bit of fear and some measure of discomfort--I have to completely relax completely trust completely submit to overcome that discomfort.

I love that all the men (just three) who have fucked me in the ass have loved it so much. I always ask why and I love the answers they have given me: "because it is so tight." "because it is so naughty and dirty and forbidden." " because I love your ass." and once, even, "because it hurts you a little and you are willing to feel plain for my pleasure." (see my "I love sadism" thread).

But I'm torn: one of the things I've loved about being sodomized is thinking of myself as unusual, out-there, adventurous for being a woman who asks for this (the other night I nearly begged) regularly. Will the fun of it fade as it goes mainstream? Or will there just be a lot more happy and fulfilled people walking around?

And has anyone read Toni Bentley's Surrender? Should I? Is there something in there I don't already know--because I already believe that if there is a god, taking it up the ass does bring you closer to him.