I'm 34 years old and for last couple of years have struggled with the desire to be a sub. I have a partner, 3 children and a good job. Sex is fantastic and I am happy so why do i feel this need? Someone said to me that once you admitted it to yourself it never went away, and thats how it feels. My partner is into light stuff but nothing heavy. I have spoken to three doms, one freaked me out completely, but the other I am still in touch with via email. I have been reading bdsm stories for over a year now, but this is the first time I have put a note on. I want some advice/experiences. I am desperate to to do this but scared at the same time.