I feel a bit out of my depth, but the posts I've seen here show that you're all very understanding of noobs finding their way.

I've never had a full on Domme/sub relationship, but several experiences make me long to be controlled by a certain kind of woman.

In my youth I had a one-time thing which was more or less in the CFNM vein. I also had a girlfriend for about a year who seemed to understand my desires; she never said anything outright but there was lots of playful tease and "forced" begging to service her orally. I also had a few experiences with a stripper who used me for money and drugs and allowed me to worship her.

I think I really need to give myself over to someone. That is the moment and action that has total sexual power for me: the moment of surrendering to her (at least in my fantasies and the "imitation" scenes above). When I imagine totally giving in, I feel not only intense sexual pleasure, but a feeling that this is what is right for me.

Anyway, hello to everyone. I'm looking forward to learning a great deal here!