That you craved being a sub? (Or Dom)
I went to a Catholic grade school, and we were pretty sheltered. We never had any health (sex) discussions, and we most certainly did not have any sex talks at home. I wasn't exposed to anything sexual until high school, really. But even as far back as when I was maybe 11? 12? I discovered, um, myselfand my earliest fantasies were of being humiliated, mostly public spankings & that sort of thing.
I also remember going to the Old Stone Schoolhouse for a field trip in 5th grade, and being upset over the fact that only the boys were being given old-school type punishments. I *might* have acted up just so I could be punished too.
So for me, pretty much before i even knew what a sub was, or what sex in general was for that matter, I knew it was what I wanted.