Greetings!

[ashsoul]

So here to "delurk" myself a bit.

Though I don`t really know how to best characterize myself. Let`s try it!

I am very a sophisticated, abstract but assertive soul. I keep learning myself and others since my consciousness informed me that I exist. Understanding the nature of things: people, society, being in general is very important to me.

One day I came to understand that I am submissive towards women. I tried to understand why these feelings, arousals, longings, fantasies are all about, for I sensed that they are far from being universal to all males. I begun to introspectively grasp these "feeling`s" essence, nature and causes. Then I came to feel ashamed because of them for even as a teenager I saw that generalities makes rules and rules tend to ridiculize and erase things that differs. So I kept my silence and my sense of privacy grew. I slowly got to a point to believe that I am the only one on earth who is like me. I had several vanilla relations until now, each ended in turn because of "unknown causes".
Finally I decided to break the total silence and search for my counterpart, if there is a chance for that. I hope that here amongst people who seem to share in a way with my passions, I do not have to feel ashamed of what I am.

Of course I do not associate "myself" as a whole with my "submissiveness" like nobody else does, I think. I believe in that phrase which goes like: every person is a whole world that is always more than it seems to be when you think you have finally grasped it. And the best way to know yourself is through others, through other worlds and if two compatible worlds collide, well...thats almost a whole universe!

I wish I could participate in a universe like that. Until then, hope keeps me alive.

With respect,
ashsoul

[ceegee{Benz}]

hello n welcome to the forums

ceegee and Benz

[blossom]

hiya and welcome,
u can be sure u`ll find others like urself here or some one here could be looking for some one like u, u will learn so much and mabe get a deeper understanding of what u feel and want/looking 4

[Rhabbi]

Welcome to the Forums

[angelic.zest]

hello and Welcome to the forum!!! glad to have you in the chat as well

[coookie]

hey ashsoul =) welcome to the forums

[cariad]

So here to "delurk" myself a bit.

Of course I do not associate "myself" as a whole with my "submissiveness" like nobody else does, I think. I believe in that phrase which goes like: every person is a whole world that is always more than it seems to be when you think you have finally grasped it. And the best way to know yourself is through others, through other worlds and if two compatible worlds collide, well...thats almost a whole universe!

I wish I could participate in a universe like that. Until then, hope keeps me alive.

With respect,
ashsoul

Hello ashsoul, and it is lovely that you have decided to delurk. I know that one of the reasons I love being here is learning about myself through my fellow librarians, so I have no doubt that if you seek the same you will find it.

to our community

cariad

[Zanado]

ashsoul,
Myself being more of a lurker here than anything else understands completely your need to just connect with others of like mindedness. I have definitely found that peace here. I hope you do as well. I also wish that you find the universe that you so desire to reside. How beautifully that was articulated by the way. Welcome to the forums and good luck to you.

[tessa]

ashsoul, welcome.

This is a lovely community and I have no doubts that you'll find that other world to collide with.

tessa

~waves at Zanado while I'm here~

[Pertez]

Welcome ashsoul

[ashsoul]

Thanks for your welcoming words, I needed these words...thank you very much!

[Flaming_Redhead]

The best way to know yourself is through others, through other worlds, and if two compatible worlds collide, well...thats almost a whole universe!

I wish I could participate in a universe like that. Until then, hope keeps me alive.

How beautiful! I wish you the best of luck in your search.

*waves to tessa and Zanado*

[diamondcontrol]

Excellent introduction! Love the level of introspection revealed.

Diamond

[ashsoul]

Thank you Flaming-Redhead and diamondcontrol, and everybody again!

[BaronVonWinger]

Hi & welcome