Jade's Master's thread

[Jadetiger]

Master,
Thank you for your praise. It really does mean a lot to me. I never once thought that the task was designed to cause a negative reaction. These issues are mine to deal with. The fact that I know your intent is not to cause me harm, makes them easier to overcome and face. I am truly an introvert and very shy. I live part of my life through fantasies and you are now helping me make them reality. I need to learn about myself and overcome the obstacles that are holding me back. I understood when I started down this path that there would be times where I would be extremely uncomfortable. I can handle it, Sir. If I couldn't I would have deleted the pictures. The fact is you are helping me do things that I could never have accomplished on my own. Master, you deserve my deepest praise. :applaus: :goldcup:

Your explanation of the real intent of the task has made your slave just that ‘anxious, horny and wet’.

Your Tums eating slave,
Jade

I really do have a warped sense of humor, which does not seem to translate well in my posts. I find it kind of funny that a woman who posts explicit photos on a forum gets a bellyache because someone will see them or make a comment. Guys, I do believe that is the purpose of posting them.

P.S. My tummy is feeling much better, but my clit aches like hell.

[ProjectEuropa]

I find it kind of funny that a woman who posts explicit photos on a forum gets a bellyache because someone will see them or make a comment. Guys, I do believe that is the purpose of posting them.

I think to post your photo was a very brave thing to do and if it is part of your master's request and you overcame your natural inclination, then I think congratulations are in order.

Yes I have looked as I assumed your photo was there to be looked at !

I really really hope you enjoy your journey of discovery. Congrats and enjoy!

[Ruby]

Jade,

You are both beautiful and brave. The pics were great.
Someday, perhaps I'll be brave enough to uncover myself
and join you. Someday.

Wishing you all the best on your journey,

Ruby

[Chuckdom19]

Jade, dear,
I respect and commend your courage. As has been stated, "Beautiful" and "Brave" are certainly words which apply to you, pretty lady.

Your Master has a wonderful opportunity to share your life, and it sounds as though you are fortunate in having him as Master.

Chksng19

[Jadetiger]

Posted as commanded.
Task 1 hour tied naked in a chair with pictures at intervals of the process.
15 mins. Butt plug
30 mins. Vibrator on clit
45 mins. Cum
60 mins. Untie myself

Follow up tasks.
I would also like you to sleep with my collar on this whole week. I want to know how you felt being tied to the chair. And what went through your mind while you were doing this task.

He wanted me to imitate Darklady’s poise, since I thought it was so hot. I explained that I did not have anything pretty like that and he said to do it naked. I was scared because my master really wants me to do something that I can’t. I was very frustrated that he wants to see all of me naked. Everybody has seen my tits, ass and pussy. But he has known all along that this is something I can’t do. Please do not mention how illogical it is I all ready know. I really don’t know the reason, maybe this is something that I am keeping just for my husband. So my new task is listed above.

This only added to my frustration. How in the hell was I suppose to get all that done while tied in that awkward and painful position. The answer is painfully.

The butt plug really hurt. Taking the pictures only left me with one arm to stop my body. I tried very hard to control how fast it went in but my weight impaled me on it. The neckties I used to tie my legs to the chair were cutting into my skin. Not a happy slave. Completed this part of the task and emailed my master his pictures.

The vibrator on my clit really didn’t do anything for me except keep my mind off how much my ass hurt. Completed this part of the task and emailed my master his pictures.

Now for the real fun. In that position I couldn’t even get the vibrator inside myself. The butt plug was blocking it. So I tried the work my body higher up on the back of the chair. The neckties were cutting off my circulation and the pain in my ankles was horrible. I finally got myself up high enough to insert the vibrator. The neckties were cutting off my circulation and the pain in my ankles was horrible. The vibrator scraped against the butt plug and it really hurt. I focused on getting master his pictures and trying to get the vibrator pass the plug without tearing myself.
I was thinking only 15 more minutes and it would be over with. I keep driving the vibrator inside of me and watching the clock. I really hated everything about this task, but a part of me must have liked it, because at the end of 15 minutes my pussy was like a water facet. I did not totally completed this part of the task because there was too much pain for me to cum. I emailed my master his pictures.

I untied myself. Completed this part of the task and emailed my master his pictures.

Follow up tasks.
I want to know how you felt being tied to the chair.
I hated it. It hurt like hell.

And what went through your mind while you were doing this task.
Pain, angry, fright and the horror that I might fail but the thought of running you over with a car did bring me a little pleasure. Maybe that's when I got all wet. I was even more frighten and angry when I almost passed out removing the but plug. Only to find out that I was bleeding from my rectum. Most of my angry is being reserved for myself at the moment. I should have realized in that position the task could not be accomplished safely with only one person. I should have said no.

I would also like you to sleep with my collar on this whole week.
I will obey.

[wannabeXopsed]

Jade,

You are amazing! :bravo:

I have yet to learn how to obey as well as you. I would have not had the perseverence that you did. It take a tremendous amount of discipline to follow through as you did. Great Job

You should be very proud of yourself!!! :applaus:

T

[Ruby]

Jade,

With every post I learn from you and thank you for sharing with the rest of us. You are a true gift.

Ruby

[Jadetiger]

WannabeXopsed and Ruby,
My Master will be pleased by your praise, but I do not feel proud, I see this as a failure. I should have stopped. I have spent all morning thinking about it and what I realized has left me shaken.

My fantasies have always involved someone else causing me pain with me enduring the torture. What happened last night was I causing me extreme pain for the pleasure of another. This is something that never even crossed my mind. I would call me stupid but that would be too generous. In an online relationship it will always be me that has to cause the pain for the pleasure of my master. This fact has me on an emotional roller coaster ride right now. I do not even know if I can report to my master this afternoon.

I will try to dry my tears and head back to work. It will only add to my shame to cry at work. They have only seen me cry once in my life and that was when my father died. Hopefully the emotions will relent and I can try a figure out why this has upset me so much.

P.S. I will draw my strength from you wonderfully ladies because right now I am all out. I really wish I could understand why this is making me cry. I hate crying it is so illogical and I just want it to stop.

[Nightstriker]

Jade I too will aplaud your loyalty to your Master. Though there are a few things that I will say.

From your descriptions I thik that you may have made your ties a little to tight. For doing all of that type of stuff by yourself.

I am also curious if you have talked with your Master about possibly getting a smaller butplug and use it untill your ass gets used to it and then slowly move up in sizes? From what I have read about anal play with those toys people new to them should start off small for it can become increadibly painful.

[Chuckdom19]

Posted as commanded.
Task 1 hour tied naked in a chair with pictures at intervals of the process.
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I respect your courage, dear lady, and thank you for sharing your beauty with us all (whichever parts...)

I believe I could help you with problems with the plug; PM me if you'd like some free advice later.

Sending you hugs for the memory of the pain, and kisses on both cheeks for your bravery and loyalty.

Chksng

[Jadetiger]

After the wonderful responses to my post, the private PMs with encouragements and medical help. Followed by an email pep talked from my Master. I find that I am feeling much better and my warped sense of humor is back. The fact that it had not come to my rescue earlier had me very distressed. Humor even bad humor is always preferable to tears.

I really think there should be a place like DMV for BDSM toy operation. You should have to take classes on how to own and operate a butt plug safety and when you passed the class. They could give you cute little picture of your ass with your first successful insertion. Speaking of those toys they should come with an owner’s manual for us not so knowledgeable beginners.

There are other issues I am dealing with besides improper use of equipment and those are the ones that really made me cry. Finding out that I may actually like causing myself pain is a real shocker. I probably would not have be so upset if I had cum, but the fact is there was no sexual pleasure in it at all. The fact my pussy was dripping like a facet makes it pretty obvious even to me that my body was extremely aroused. If I could only get my mind to jumped aboard I could really have some fun with this new discovery. I will have to give myself time to accept this new information about myself. I will also have to be careful not to be to over zealous in exploring this aspect of myself once I accept it.

Visions of hot wax, clothespins and bonded breasts dance in her head.

Lions, tigers and bears oh my.

[Mobius]

After the wonderful responses to my post, the private PMs with encouragements and medical help. Followed by an email pep talked from my Master. I find that I am feeling much better and my warped sense of humor is back. The fact that it had not come to my rescue earlier had me very distressed. Humor even bad humor is always preferable to tears.

I really think there should be a place like DMV for BDSM toy operation. You should have to take classes on how to own and operate a butt plug safety and when you passed the class. They could give you cute little picture of your ass with your first successful insertion. Speaking of those toys they should come with an owner’s manual for us not so knowledgeable beginners.

There are other issues I am dealing with besides improper use of equipment and those are the ones that really made me cry. Finding out that I may actually like causing myself pain is a real shocker. I probably would not have be so upset if I had cum, but the fact is there was no sexual pleasure in it at all. The fact my pussy was dripping like a facet makes it pretty obvious even to me that my body was extremely aroused. If I could only get my mind to jumped aboard I could really have some fun with this new discovery. I will have to give myself time to accept this new information about myself. I will also have to be careful not to be to over zealous in exploring this aspect of myself once I accept it.

Visions of hot wax, clothespins and bonded breasts dance in her head.

Lions, tigers and bears oh my.

So are you saying that your body betrayed you not to use an over worked cliché.

Just out of curiosity you said that the butplug hurt and you had bleading etc
Did you use enough lubrication? Not that I am an expert in butplugology.

How about posting a pic of the ofending object. so the judges and see how
big it was?

Maybe Dracubius will abduct you and try varing sizes of butplugs on your vertual self

[Nightstriker]

Bears? What? Who is talking about me now?

[Jadetiger]

So are you saying that your body betrayed you not to use an over worked cliché.

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.

Just out of curiosity you said that the butplug hurt and you had bleading etc Did you use enough lubrication? Not that I am an expert in butplugology.

The butt plug is size medium and I put a ton of lube on it. I image the fact that I was tied in an awkward and painful position kept me from being able to relax. I have only used it twice before. The accident was compounded by the fact I could not control how fast it got inserted.

How about posting a pic of the ofending object. so the judges and see how big it was?

Picture attached

Maybe Dracubius will abduct you and try varing sizes of butplugs on your vertual self

Please keep him away from me. LOL I want to play with Lord Mobius and Lord Chuck. Dracubius is not my kind of Dom. Now if you want to remove a branch from your family tree just have Dracubius play with Jade. You can always tell grandma it was a work related accident.

Nightstriker, you seem like a teddy bear to me. Excuse me a teddy bear with whips.

[Ruby]

Jade, honey,

What a big learning day you've had. So sorry to hear about the emotional roller coaster and happy your sense of humor is back.

The hardest part for me about experimenting with my likes and dislikes is finding things out about myself that I might not have ever guessed or even thought of. In theory, we can all say, no, I wouldn't like that or sure it sounds great, but then reality comes crashing in and whoa - it's often a surprise.

Forgive yourself and do take some time to think about what you liked, what you'd do differently and what you don't want to repeat.

"I really think there should be a place like DMV for BDSM toy operation..." - Perfect analogy.

Big hugs and kisses to brave, beautiful you,

Ruby

[Jadetiger]

Ruby,

Yes it was a big learning day for me and you are right I was totally taken by surprise. Master and I chatted for a while this afternoon. This new knowledge about myself is pretty scary but I am finding it kind of exciting too. We decided for my own safety that it would be best if I let him decide how we precede. Like you he says we should take it very slowly.

I did realize today something Master has been trying to get me to understand for quite sometime and that is that I am not alone. I have people who will help me whenever I need it. That more than anything is the real lesson I learned today.

My only task if I chose was to stay off the computer, take a bubble bath, put on a comfy robe, eat something and watch a little TV for part of the night. I decided to obey. He also suggested an early night, which I believe I will obey that too.

It is amazing how a very bad day can turn out to be one of the best days of your life.
It doesn’t happen often to me so I will always treasure this day and the people who made it special.

[craftygirl]

*big hugs* for you Jade

[spirit]

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.

i can totally relate to this Jade...i'm dealing with the same feelings myself at the moment....stick with it, you're an inspiration...hugs

[Mobius]

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.



The butt plug is size medium and I put a ton of lube on it. I image the fact that I was tied in an awkward and painful position kept me from being able to relax. I have only used it twice before. The accident was compounded by the fact I could not control how fast it got inserted.



Picture attached


Please keep him away from me. LOL I want to play with Lord Mobius and Lord Chuck. Dracubius is not my kind of Dom. Now if you want to remove a branch from your family tree just have Dracubius play with Jade. You can always tell grandma it was a work related accident.

Nightstriker, you seem like a teddy bear to me. Excuse me a teddy bear with whips.

Maybe it was the pic but it does look pretty big to me. Cuto's to you for taking it.

[Jadetiger]

It seems I have busted a capillary in my eye. It started in the far corner of my eye and I didn't notice until I got home from work. It really would have been nice if someone had mentioned it at work. You can image my shock when I looked in the mirror. The blood is all the way to my pupil now. It seems to have stopped growing. Well I am crossing my fingers. I looked like a vampire in a movie who only has one eye filling up with blood.

And I have no idea how it happened. I have not had an injury to my eye.

Here is question how long before it goes away? I need to know if I should by a cute pair of sun glasses to wear to work on Monday.

[Nightstriker]

I have no idea as to how long it will take to go away, but you may have done it because you may have been rubbing your eye a little to much. From to much abrasion, the capillary may have ruptured.

[wannabeXopsed]

Ah, Jade I hope you are feeling better by this evening, you have been through a lot and have been tested. I believe you have surpassed a huge mile stone in your journey just relizing and validating your emotions. That is a big step in a finding how far you will go to please Master. I was once told that "Master knows what is best for me"

You have given him that role so let it be, and know that the next task will come easier to you maybe, and believe you haven't failed in anyway. Sounds to me that your Master is caring and very proud of you.

Crying is good for you to release those emotions and then you can go forward with a fresh outlook.

Again big hugs, and loving thoughts to you!

T

Ps I also think the these products should come with more instuctions than,
WARNING: This is a novelty product. But look we have more in different colors and sizes. ( I went shopping today) to buy a new butt plug, looked for instructions NOPE not one word about how to use. Not to mention care for these products, Thank goodness for the employees that work there, as embarrassing as it is, to look at someone and ask how much lube do I need or do you think it is to big Oh yea one last thing, I have to use special soap?

[LBoolean]

It seems I have busted a capillary in my eye. It started in the far corner of my eye and I didn't notice until I got home from work. It really would have been nice if someone had mentioned it at work. You can image my shock when I looked in the mirror. The blood is all the way to my pupil now. It seems to have stopped growing. Well I am crossing my fingers. I looked like a vampire in a movie who only has one eye filling up with blood.

And I have no idea how it happened. I have not had an injury to my eye.

Here is question how long before it goes away? I need to know if I should by a cute pair of sun glasses to wear to work on Monday.

This has happened to me too, I went to see the doc about it and he said as long as it does not get bigger or hurts it will go away by itself... it did after about a week.... even with both eyes back to normal I still scare chlidren and small animals, go figure...

L

[Jadetiger]

I have no idea as to how long it will take to go away, but you may have done it because you may have been rubbing your eye a little to much. From to much abrasion, the capillary may have ruptured.

Nightstriker,
I was rubbing my eyes a lot the day before this happened so you have the solved the mystery for me Sherlock Holmes. Please take this as a great compliment. I am a great fan of detective mysteries.

Ah, Jade I hope you are feeling better by this evening, you have been through a lot and have been tested. I believe you have surpassed a huge mile stone in your journey just relizing and validating your emotions. That is a big step in a finding how far you will go to please Master. I was once told that "Master knows what is best for me"

You have given him that role so let it be, and know that the next task will come easier to you maybe, and believe you haven't failed in anyway. Sounds to me that your Master is caring and very proud of you.

Crying is good for you to release those emotions and then you can go forward with a fresh outlook.

Again big hugs, and loving thoughts to you!

T

Ps I also think the these products should come with more instuctions than,
WARNING: This is a novelty product. But look we have more in different colors and sizes. ( I went shopping today) to buy a new butt plug, looked for instructions NOPE not one word about how to use. Not to mention care for these products, Thank goodness for the employees that work there, as embarrassing as it is, to look at someone and ask how much lube do I need or do you think it is to big Oh yea one last thing, I have to use special soap?

WannabeXopsed,
My master was extremely proud of my obedience and the completion of the task. He was not happy that I did not stop when I hurt myself. He also said it was his fault that it happened and not mine. I remember telling him he was a great Dom for me and that most other Doms would have sent me into hiding along time ago. I have been thinking about it and I am not an easy sub to work with. I now realize my inability to show him my whole body hinders him from ensuring for my safety. He has been trying to use logic, patience and even command to help me over come this but none of it has worked. My master is not my husband and my husband is not in this life style. As illogical as it sounds keeping my body from my master makes my husband the true master of my heart. This has allowed me to explore my needs and desires without having my heart laden with guilt.

I am sure my master is trying to figure out how to proceed with this limitation. His pleasure comes from my willingness to serve and watching as I discover news things about myself as I take my journey into submissiveness. It was suppose to mentally and physically arouse me, but enduring extreme pain was not part of this task. Like my master I have some things to figure out. My safety is a great concern for him and I need to help him so he can feel confident that it will not be an issue in the future. I believe my master’s slave will be adding a couple of pretty corsets to his toy collection. This should give him the access he needs to ensure for my safety and still keep the promise I made to myself.

I agree with you on surpassing a huge milestone here and I am lucky to have a master who will make sure I take baby steps in exploring this side of myself. I can image his pleasure when he finally gets my body and mind in sync and has me orgasming from my pain as well. I am making myself hot just thinking about it.

This has happened to me too, I went to see the doc about it and he said as long as it does not get bigger or hurts it will go away by itself... it did after about a week.... even with both eyes back to normal I still scare chlidren and small animals, go figure... L

LBoolean,
It would seem I will get to but a pair of sunglasses after all. Thanks

[Nightstriker]

It was not a problem Jade, though I really would appreciate it if next time you use a N as opposed to a K when spelling my name.

I shall take the compliment for it is not every day that I get called Sherlock Holmes.

[Jadetiger]

It was not a problem Jade, though I really would appreciate it if next time you use a N as opposed to a K when spelling my name.

I shall take the compliment for it is not every day that I get called Sherlock Holmes.

Sorry I fixed it. I put Knightstriker first and removed the wrong letter when I thought I was fixing it. I must be having trouble seeing this morning.

[Nightstriker]

It is alright. Just one of my slight twiches.

[Jadetiger]

It is alright. Just one of my slight twiches.

To bad I can’t spanked for my mistakes.

[Nightstriker]

I am pretty sure that can be arranged Jade.

[Katmandu]

Awww, this is so mushy you 2. I'll handle it Night. Here 'ya go, Jade: :spank: