Masters_lilone's thread

[Masters_lilone]

things are going great between me and my Master except for one small thingi 'm having a small problem with opening up fully to him and i'm feeling down about it. he told me that it's because we have only been Master and slave for less then a year and havent had any real time together yet.. i feel as if mabey if iwasn't hurt so much after opening up to some one that i wouldn't be having this problem now.we talked a lil last night and i started toopen up to him but it was hard for me to do though and yes i know a slave is not suopsed to keep things from there Master or Mistress. but what does a slave or sub do to overcome something like this.:-(

[Jadetiger]

For one thing stop beating yourself up over it. You are only human. I will give you some good advice that I got from members of this forum. Relax and enjoy your Master. Everything else will start to fall into place and you will automatically start opening up more and more to him. Love and trust are two different things. Trust is something that comes hard for most people. We are all insecure at times and hide because we are afraid of our own feelings. Your master loves you and understands so give yourself time. As the love grows so will the trust.

Jade

[learningtopleez]

What Jade said lilone....you have been hurt in the past, and that is a difficult thing to overcome.....but you also have to remember that this is a different person. Besides luv....we take risks everyday when it comes to love, and opening up our hearts and souls to another. But if we didn't, then how would we ever know if it is meant to be? Take it one small lil step at the time sweetie....he is patient....he understands. Now...be that happy lil slave girl I know and luv so well! February isn't that far away!!

hugs and kisses
~ltp~

[learningtopleez]

Darn it...another double post!

[Masters_lilone]

jade and learning i read your posts and i am not gonna beat myself up over this any more... my Master has been so understanding about this.it's just that it's bothering me a lil bit because i know that my Master wasn't the cause of any of the hurt i am going threw and that is why i want to be able to open up more to him.oh and learning i will always be the happy lilslavegirl that you know and love.

[learningtopleez]

Goody! But anytime you need to talk sweets....just post away! We will be here to listen and help!

hugs
~ltp~

[Masters_lilone]

there may be a slight change of plans concerning me moving to NC. my Master is thinking about moving to NY. i'm excited that he may be moving here but i'm also kinda sad about it because i feel as if i am taking him away from his family and i'm also worried about how his neice is gonna take the news because she is real close to my Master due to the fact that he has practily raised her from when she was a baby due to her farther walking outof her mom's life and not wanting any thing to do with her or her mom.and also my Master only has a year and a half of nursing school left and i'm worried about if he will be able to have his school credits transferd to a school here in NY or if he will have to retake all his classes all over again
things will be rough for us for awhile if he moves here due to the fact that he will be in school and him needing major surgery on his knee. i told him that i think we should wait to get married till he finishes school because i don't want anything to stop him from finishing school.

[Masters_lilone]

I'M SO DANG HAPPY.... in two more weeks i will finally be with my Master he is comming to NY on valintines day(I'm getting the one thing i wanted more then anything for valintines dayand that one thing is my Master )while we are in NY we are planing to go collar and toy shopping i will be collaring my Master as well as him collaring me. and we will be planing our wedding we will be having two wedding cermonies one here in NY and one back in NC. my Master's uncle is gonna be doing our cermony in NC... i'm so nervous and excited at the same time. i finally finished planing the collaring cermony and i know that Master is gonna be suprised and happy. my soon to be mom in law loves me already and she hasn't even met me yet. after our cermony in NC me and Master are plaing a big party so all his friends can meet me.i'm so nervous about having to meet all his friends plus my new family all at the same time... HELP MEEEEEEE!....i'm a bundle of nerves right now just thinking about my up comming wedding plus the start of my new life.

[Ruby]

Great news, Master Paul's lilone!

The Valentine's day countdown is on.
Am hoping its better than you can imagine.

[Masters_lilone]

thankies.. and yep it will be the best valintines day ever

[Masters_lilone]

i just wanted to share with you all the vow i am gonna make to my Master when he collars me .... thiswas written from my heart and is not your usual collaring vow

My Beloved Master...as i come before you and beg your collar on this day i give to you all that i am and will become. i know that it is threw your love that i will find my true heart and grow to be all that you want me to be not only as your slavegirl but also as your wife and mistress.when we first started talking i had no clue how hard i was gonna fall for you.we have been threw so much but it only made our relationship stronger.i still can't believe that ithas only been less then a year that we have known each other it feels like i have known you for ever.i know that my life will be different now because you are a part of it.i think back to something you told me when we first started our relationship and it just makes me know how verr lucky i am to be owned by you.Master i willingly give myself to you from this day foward in all ways. may our journey never end because in you i am now complete and in you i found the freedom to grow and spread my wings.you will always be the wind beneith my wings.

[learningtopleez]

Hiya Masters_lilone!

It has been too long since I have caught up on your news! See! February is already here! I am super excited for you hun, and I understand the nervousness you must be feeling regarding meeting his family and friends, but rest assured that everything will fall into place! You have already said that your new mother-in-law to be loves you already sweetie! That's half the battle right there!

And the words you have written for your ceremony are just beautiful sug! I know he will love you all the more for writing them yourself! I wish you much happiness, love, laughter, and fun!

hugs and kisses
~ltp~

[Masters_lilone]

i'm a bundle of nerves at the moment as i realise that i will soon be with my Master for good now ... i still can't believe that even though we have known each other for just a short time we are gonna be getting married. at times it feels as if this is still just a dream but i know it's not though because of the fact that valintine's day is comming up soon.i know that my Master is gonna beso happy when he hears the words that i wrote for my collaring. it seems as if even though our relationship was rough when we first started getting to know each other it just made our love for each other stronger.my Master told me that he is just as nervous as i am. and that once his family meets me they will love me just as much as he does...i'm just gonna be my self around them so this way they can see that i'm just a normal girl.i still can't believe that i will be going from city girl to farm girl it will be a big adjustment for me but i'll get use to it but it will just take time though

[Masters_lilone]

hey learning .... thanks for the well wishes

[learningtopleez]

hey learning .... thanks for the well wishes

Awwww....you're quite welcome sweetie! And being a farm girl ain't all that bad! Just teasing luv...I have only lived in the country (not an actual farm though) my whole life! I have had the pleasure of visiting NYC a few years back, and was quite overwhelmed! Everything was so tall! And noisy! Just expect nice, quiet, warm evenings (once spring arrives!), with the smell of gardenia or honeysuckle in the air. It's quite beautiful here and you will be just in time for the spring/summer! And the beaches are heavenly! LOL Okay...have I sold you on it yet? Just give me a holler if ya need any southern advice sug!

And only 8 more days luv! I am so happy for you!

hugs and kisses

[Radar]

It is now feb 25 lilone, how come no more updates?

[Aesop]

lilone is away from the board right now to be with him. I'm sure she'll update us when she gets back.

[Masters_lilone]

this is a picture of me and Master. it was taken after a carrage ride threw central park

[Masters_lilone]

Valintine's Day was extra special cause i got to spend it with the one who i love more then anything... Master arrived two days before valintine's day and i had met him at the train station. his train was suposed to have arrived in NY at 8:30pm but because of the snowstorm the train was late getting into NY and didn't get into the station till after midnight. we took the train back to my place so we could talk for a while and he gave me my Valintine's day gifts he gave me a bathset and a sweatshirt that had three animals on it and the word North Carolina on it. he was dead tired so i had let him sleep for a while then when he woke up we had called for hotel resavations and spent a week and a half at the hotel. seeing as it was Master's first time in NY we did the usual tourist things

[Masters_lilone]

we went to the empire state building and to times square and to chinatown and we did some shopping because i needed some new clothes. we had planed to go toy shopping but that never happened so that is gonna be one of the things we do when we are together again.i'm still here in NY and my Master is back home in NC. Oh and for Valintine's day Master had given me my public collar he is gonna collar me with my leather collar when we are in NC and i will be collaring him as well then... the only bad part was that Master wound up in the ERwhile he was here he had a ear lung and sinus infection the flu and a broncitis attack all at the same time. :-(...... i was really worried about him cause he is diabetic and can have reall bad reactions from being sick... so i had spent a few days taking care of him. Master was kinda feeling down because he thought that he had ruined our time together because we couldn't play much cause he was sick. i told him that i was still having a good time and i didn't expcet him to give me play time cause he was sick.

[subdude05]

That's so sweet and heart warming (exept for the sickness thing), my Girlfriend/Mistress is away at the moment and i miss her, so i kind of know how you feel.

[Ruby]

this is a picture of me and Master. it was taken after a carrage ride threw central park

What a great photo - so romantic!

So sorry to hear that your master ended up in the ER.

Am hoping he is recovering quickly/recovered and that
you two have many wonderful adventures.

Thanks for keeping us up to date.

[Masters_lilone]

your'e welcome.and Master is feeling much better now :-)

[learningtopleez]

Just catching up around here M's lil_one! What a great pic. of the two of you! I am sorry to hear that your Master was sick for part of your time together, but it just proved to him how much you love him hun, by taking care of him! I am super happy to hear he is all better! And I am so happy that the two of you got to spend time together!

*hugs*

[Masters_lilone]

yep that's true learing... i do love him so much... it was kinda hard to get much sleep while Master was sick though cause i had to be up all different times to be sure he took his meds on time but it was worth it though

[Masters_lilone]

i will be sharing another picture with you all once i am on my new computer

[Masters_lilone]

i still can't believe how lucky i am to have Master in my life now. with each passing day my love for him grows stronger because he stuck by me when i was going threw a hardtime andloves me no matter what. i have grown asa slave so much cause of his love and he taught me how to trust again after i was hurt bad by my ex master some times i feel as if i'm dreaming because sometimes i think to my self how did i wind up with such a loving master.

[Masters_lilone]

i was just reading a old post and jade was right when she said that over time as the love between me and my Master grew it would be easier for me to open up to him... i love him so much now and am finally able to open up to him fully and in every way. Oh i'm finally gonna be moving to NC to be with him hopefully he got the new job that he was inerviewed for

[Ruby]

... i love him so much now and am finally able to open up to him fully and in every way. Oh i'm finally gonna be moving to NC to be with him hopefully he got the new job that he was inerviewed for

Congratulations on the progress in your relationship.

Good luck on both the move and his potential new gig.

You two rock!

[learningtopleez]

It sounds like things are going great for you M's lil-one! I am happy that you have overcome the past bad relationship, through all the love from your Master now! Good Luck on his job and on your move! Come on down sugar! The weather has been great here!