Alone...

[DiablosPet]

I am no longer Master's Pet.. my life feels shattered. I understand why he had to leave me.. but it still hurts beyond words.. I feel so alone. I don't feel complete anymore.. I just want everything to go back to the way it was.. I don't know who I am anymore..

I'm finally letting myself cry..I want Master back so bad..

-?

[Jayden McZimmer]

I am sorry your hurting DP. Times will get better as I'm sure you have heard before, keep your head up.

[slaveangel{HM}]

Oh my sweetie! *hugs you so tight, stroking your hair* Right now the best thing to do is let out those emotions that are deep within you. I am sure he has his reasons, from what I have seen here, you two had such a strong relationship and it is heartbreaking to read this news.

The first few days, weeks are horribly hard, try to stay strong, be focused and remember who you are, and what you are. You are stronger than you think. I still remember my first One...the memories and experiences never leave you, they still have a little place in your heart and soul.

You do feel worthless that you cannot find the strength again to move on, to just simply exist, it is soul crushing and terrible. That you aren't deserving of anyones attention, that there is no light and peace...anywhere.

Just..trust me, it does get a little better as time passes, I mean for me it has been years and years, but you never forget, you become strengthened, remember the lessons learned and take that next step slowly...baby steps.

I never thought i'd find another like the One I first had, but slowly slowly, the bond I have with my Master is strong and unbreakable and in a few days he will be here with me, moving from the UK to aussieland to be with me for good. In the start when my first One left it was hell, but somethings things have a strange way of falling into place in the end.

The lifestyle is about learning and growing, it isn't always easy, the decisions that are made aren't always clear in the start, but eventually you think back and realise maybe it was for the best and things aren't so bad anymore.

angel xx

[mighty_marc]

There is no house in town in which inhabitants haven't felt what loss is (as a buddhistic monk has once put it in the book about living and dying).

Well, nothing happens without purpose and if there is a truth, it is that if you are not together anymore it just means that you haven't meant to be together.
Hard as it might sound, this statement is meant to alleviate those feelings crushing your heart now.
If he is better off without you, you shall be happy for the way he is going, and if you love him, you should think so even more. But the same is true for you, as the longer you stay with the person which is just not yours, the longer it takes for you to find the one you are supposed to be with.

I know that I can't make you smile now, but maybe I can draw your attention away just a little bit and maybe, you will be able to smile one day, looking back at what I would like you to feel and see right now.

Everything is going to change for you now, but in order to be born, the bird has to destroy the shall of the egg he used to live in.

Please smile for a second
Marc

[DiablosPet]

Thank you for your words of encouragement and wisdom. I did not post for attention by any means.. I just need support right now and I have no where else to turn. He was an amazing Master and will always be held high in my heart. I must grieve and move on. To linger in the pain would only hurt myself and him.

"Our love once was but now long gone,
the joy, the pain, the life we once had.
Now all you are and all you can be,
are simply between the pages of my diary..."

I scribbled this down the moment I found out what I had lost..

-Me

[.x.Cole.x.]

babe you will be ok in the end. i know how much it hurts to lose something that you have put so much into. it sucks but it gets better i promise.

[slaveangel{HM}]

*hugs* just popped in to check up on you.

angel xx

[Jelitza]

I am sure it must be hard. Why did your present master leave you? I am sure you were good to him. Try looking for another one.

Good luck!

[DiablosPet]

Thank you everyone<3 I am going away for a little while (week or so) it will be good to clear my head and get my life sorted out. I appreciate everyone's love and support<3 This place is home to the real me. I just hope one day I can find someone of my own to share the real "Heather" with<3 I love you all always<3

I will be back again soon hopefully a revived and positive me.

Please, if you see Diablo around on the forums, be good to him. He is hurting just as much as I am right now<3 I will always love him...

Thanks again to everyone<3 It's good to be able to talk to people about this...

Love always,
DiablosPet
XOXO

[slaveangel{HM}]

hugs it is hard when life gets in the way sometimes and two people who work and are so well together have to be torn apart. Thinking of you both.

angel xx

[Birdy]

Sorry to here this sad news DP, I know it will take time top heal but remeber you are with friends here who send you all there love. Tc xx

[denuseri]

HUGGGGGGS oh baby doll i know it sucks bigtime, my prayers for you in this trying time, hang in there sista, we are all here to help ya boo

please let me know if there is anything i can do for ya , i hate seeing my sister subbies go through rough times

HUGS&KISSESS

[Selash]

*scoops you up and huggles tight* Poor, beautiful girl. I'm sorry for your pain.

[sweetlittleone]

oh no, darling, what happened? I'm sure everyone is asking you that, and im sorry, if you are not up for telling me...but after seein the last message i saw up here, going on about how much you love him and how perfect you 2 are for each other....and now suddenly this. it worries me greatly!! *lots of hugs*

[Guest110308]

huggles you tight. I am sorry you are experiencing this in your life DP. I know this is hard for you. If i you need someone to talk to or just someone to sit with you i would be honored to.
huggles and kisses

[sweetlittleone]

*big hugs again* (posted a comment i didnt realize i already posted just previous hehe...so i thought id just send more hugs)

[Chuckdom19]

DP, when my wife got cancer the second time, she fell apart.
A very loving friend told her, "You've got to get over it some
day, why not today?"

There are ways of filling that empty space, just like when you
lose a kitten or pup; find another, try again. I hope you can,
dear lady. It will never replace, but it can fill the loneliness.

Good luck and hugs!

[DowntownAmber]

Boy...I know how this goes for sure... My thread on this same topic brought some great support from the forum, lean on it and embrace it. PM if you need anything.

[brokenwings]

oh no! when did this happen hon? why? are you ok??? i'm still feeling what your going through...i know that horrid pain...oh...im so sorry