Hi Everyone!

[sub_lily]

Yes, I am new to the site! Yay! I shall start with a little about myself: I am a 25 y/o female submissive who has known this for about the past 4 years now. I'm not, to this day, 100% positive how it really came to light other than feeling like something was missing in my life. And then I met Him, the very first Dom I had the pleasure of serving. He confirmed my feelings,needs,and desires as a submissive who wanted to serve. But alas, it didn't last long and I am now in a vanilla relationship with a man who is amazing, yet the need to serve and remain submissive is strong...which is why I am here. In a nutshell...for my release....and by the way, you can call me lily!

[Utburd]

Hi Lily

Welcome, hope you enjoy the forum, theres a lot of people here all of whom love to talk and discuss things, and who have a wealth of experience. I had a similar experience too once, but as a Dom I was with a girl who didnt have any sort of BDSM inclination at all and that was pretty tough.

I hope you find a way to be happy,

U.

[DarkDreamMaker]

Hello and welcome to the forums.

If you wish to PM me feel free, I am always happy to chat/e-mail.


Cheers.

[blythe spirit]

[MrDom]

hello and welcome

[sub_lily]

thank you all, so very much...i have had many messages in my few short hours on here...and i feel very welcomed!

[Tufty]

Hello and to the Forums

[Diablo]

Welcome lily, good luck in your search.

[rosebud]

Hi Welcome to the Forums! Enjoy!

[rsjankowski]

welcome to the community lilly, isn't it interesting how a submissive wants release, actually i feel your pain in some aspects but from the dominating side of the coin. my wife states she's a kinky wild child, but she's just pretty much a vanilla person. course some interesting things can be made with vanilla.

[QuietMaster]

Welcome and good luck on your travels.

Each person is the captain of his/her "ship" that leads to the focused destination.

[Aussiegirl1]

Hi and welcome to the forum. I am sure you will find it both fun and informative.

[Ozme52]

lily

good luck finding your wings.

[justintheman]

Hi, and to try and anwer your question, in maybe a bit too much of a dr. phil style.
You 'need' to decide what you would want more, him or your submissive desires. a bit short maybe but I hope it helps

[DiablosLittleOne]

Welcome to the Library Lily.

[denuseri]

wellcome to the site

we are so very happy to have you here, the forums are full of great information, as well as having a very nice personels section and chatroom

feel free to pm any of the staff or myself with conserns or questions, we are more than willing to lend a hand

hope to see more of you soon
have lots of fun exploring the site
hugs and kissess
denu

[sub_lily]

Thank you, again, for all of Y/your kind words. Maybe i should be a little more specific. While i do find myself in a vanilla relationship, it is not bad whatsoever. Everything that anyone could ever ask for is within this relationship....ok, when i say that, of course meaning anyone vanilla, who doesn't need to have their Dom/me or submissiveness tapped into. i have been with him for almost three years and while things aren't boring, in the bedroom, i am unable to be the sub i know i am. He does know about my needs as a sub for a very long time now...and has tried many times to 'accomodate' my needs. i give him much credit for trying, however his attempts haven't really lifted off the ground as he believes that bdsm is only 'foreplay' or about sex. He hasn't been able to grasp that it is much more psychological before it becomes physical. He will choke me, spank me, bite me and fist me...mmmmm, but the voice of a Dom doesn't present itself. No, i am not saying he is a girly man, which he is NOT, and i shoudln't compare him to the Dom i did serve, but Him, ahhh..i knew he meant business. It has been a back and forth struggle for me. I have tried to bury, if you will, my sub feelings and move on, and found the needs/desires screamed louder within me. So again, I want to thank Y/you all for the kind words! Thus far my time here has been very welcoming!