i'm sorry i didn't mean to confuse anybody lol.

Tojo and i have traded PM in which i told him my situation, i expressed to him that (for me) feeling things too deeply is at times too much to deal with. So, i try not to let the feelings get too deep rooted in my heart and mind.
Bottom line is, i feel things but they scare me because my Mistress has made me feel things that i never thought i would ever feel. That can be very overwhelming at times.
As for the crying, i hate doing it but i do cry. Slowly learning it's not a weakness or character flaw.
You'll have to excuse my babbling, i was up very late and unfortunately chose to get out of bed too early lol. i've probably confused you even more lol.