Crucifixion

[Jones, Nikka]

Originally posted by Spitman
There's no need to 'live out' a fantasy. A great fantasy can remain in the mind and exceed anything we can do physically...
...There are some kinds of fantasy that are just not meant to be acted out, and if you try, the inevitable result will be disappointment, if not terrible pain and possibly even death. I would include crucifixion,...

If there was no need to "live out" our fantasies I think very few of us would be here. I am sure that even those who only read the stories in the bdsm library and have never acted out a scene feel a bit of excitement knowing that some of it could be real. And yes, Spitman you are right. In fantasy everything is possible and in reality there are limits. Just like a travel brochure. We all know that the pictures of the hotel are always nicer than the resort itself but that does not stop anyone from going on vacation, does it? Have you ever seen an advertisement for new cars that includes a scene of a traffic jam? I am sure you have not but millions of cars are sold around the world every year.
I know real crucifixion will not feel like a Faibhar story. It will hurt. I expect it to be excruciating. Yet I need to know if in the middle of such pain, my mind can take me to a place where I can feel excited and eager to suffer, even as my body begs for release. Even if I had a recent experience where I was betrayed by my own lust and crashed out of subspace. And for me to know I have to try it.

Originally posted by GaryWilcox
On the other hand, you would feel awfully good tied to that cross, wouldn't you? <g>

Yes Gary I know I would. In fact, I am getting ready for it. I have been in touch with people who have lived through the experience and I have learned a lot about safety and the fitness preparations that are required. My boyfriend, F. has told me that it will happen. Not when or where but that it will. I know I will be safe so long as he is by my side. Right now, in light of recent experiences, I am mostly afraid. But deep down inside the fantasy burns in me, and with it the spark of excitement.