Sheepish I'm glad you did decide to post this. I think the more that know the more you will be able to feel better about your terrible experience. I know you told this to me in a PM but I think it was a wise choice to also post it her for other opinions. Oz's question, for example, is an excellent one. Maybe in the answer to it lies something that will help guide others away from similar circumstances. You are rebuilding just fine from the little I know about you. Keep it up and you know you always have much support from your family here when you need it.