I haven't bothered to read the replies to this yet (being the lazy one I am) but I can say this, it seems to me you feel embarrassed and ashamed of this. Don't be. This is just a personal experience, but when I was (in the ball park of...) ten, I found myself growing rather affectionate to a young girl my age. I can honestly say she was the first girl I ever loved. Around that same age, both our family's had to move. I never knew why until I was twelve, but for some reason I wasn't allowed to talk with her on the phone. When I was 12 or 13 I found out that she had been raped. A little later on in life, I started struggling with fantasies of raping girls. After a while I began to embrace these fantasies. Though I don't dominate real people, I read stories, sometimes roleplay over the internet. I feel better about my self. I know I feel the exact same high I would feel through raping a person...but yet...on the same token I'm not doing any one harm.

-RJ