I will try to answer the best I can and hope I make sense. These are very good questions.


1. Why do you submit? It is my core personality. I have been submissive as long as I can remember. I have always received pleasure knowing I have pleased someone else. Teachers, parents, significant others, bosses and friends are some examples. I submit to Sir because I love being for his pleasure and find I receive much more pleasure in doing so.
What is the drive? I feel significant; I have a purpose, useful and needed. With Sir, the drive is knowing if I am pleasing him, I am receiving pleasure as well. I find having my orgasms controlled, having my limits pushed, exploring new things and knowing anything sexually is for his pleasure makes my orgasms more intense, gives me more pleasure and satisfaction.
What is the reward? I am a better person, I take better care of myself, I am happier, my orgasms are more intense, I feel more trust and caring than I ever have being Sir’s submissive and I am enjoy my sexuality more than ever.

2. How did you ever start down this path? I think it was my first husband who really introduced me to this path. He however was more of a sadist than anything and had things been different I may have been in the life years ago. I knew I enjoyed many things just had some bad experiences and never found anyone willing to try anything dealing with BDSM other than an occasional spanking or being handcuffed. I met Sir online and we were friends he knew through things I had posted I was submissive and things just went from there. I feel I have missed a lot by not being in the life sooner but I am happy I am now.
Any bumps along the way? I had bad experiences with my first husband and exposure to bdsm and it made me not explore things enjoy until now. I also ran into a couple of men online who were not what they claimed and made me apprehensive about exploring the life until I met Sir online.

3. If your submissive side of your personality is different than your "everyday" self, how do you reconcile the two? I keep my two lives separate from each other. I am not in a real life so to speak relationship it is all online. I am a little more out spoken in my everyday life but still submissive.
How do you switch back and forth? This is not a problem since they are two separate lives. Me being submissive and in training is all online and it makes it easier for me to switch from one to the other.
What is your trigger for getting into "sub mode?" The minute I see him sign on or I am working on an assignment I am in sub mode. I always want to please him and hate when I have not.

4. Anything you dislike about it? I dislike the conflict I have sometimes with what I have been raised to believe my life should be like and what it really is. I have worked through this a lot and it has become easier. I also dislike not being able to be open about my life and not being able to share what is making me happy and making me care about myself.
Anything you would rather change? I would love to be in more than an online relationship with Sir.

5. Does any of the above change based on whether or not you have a current partner? I have always been submissive, I have always put others before myself so having a partner just makes it easier to experience my submissiveness.