It seems much longer ago than it really was when this whole thing started. Hard to believe it's only been a month or so since I started seeing him...

He continues to attack my bravado, it really doesn't stand a chance. i feel nervous and in over my head just about every week. He messes with my head and enjoys anything that gets a reaction from me. He's egotistical and infuriatingly good at winning arguments. We're almost always arguing about something, and his favourite way to win is to just either gag me or make me otherwise incapable of logical argument. He teases me and pushes me and makes me uncomfortable and he drives me crazy.

And it's been a very long time since I've been this consistently silly-giddy happy.

I call him a sadistic bastard, and adorable because it drives him crazy. He calls me whatever strikes his fancy at the moment, if it makes me squirm so much the better. I told him I could deal with a multi-faceted personality, he didn't always have to be a sadistic bastard, and he called me a chore, and the best thing that's happened to him in quite a while.

He gives me massages after a long day at work, then leaves welts on my thighs that take 2 weeks to fade. Slaps me until my eyes fill with tears, and tracks down and buys an obscure album I really wanted but couldn't find myself.
We're both learning what he can do to me, how far he can push... most recently it was orgasm control, none for a weekend, and I have to ask everytime when I'm with him. Before that was the discovery that I get off on humiliation. fun *cough* has been had with that one...
He loves to hurt me, but will put that aside to torture me in other ways when it seems appropriate... Today we're going shopping with the goal of picking up a new flogger or paddle, and he's said that he won't beat me with it until I beg. And beg well, which will be even more of a challenge, given how terribly incoherent I go when submitting. I won't hold out long, I'm craving that beating already.

This is by far the most kink-heavy relationship I've been in, and it's incredible. We challenge eachother, sometimes i fight him, struggle to submit, and other times there's nothing more comfortable than sitting on the floor in front of his couch wrapped in a blanket with his hand stroking my hair.