Well I've managed to stick my nose in just about everywhere in the last week (wanted or not, sometimes I'm not too sensitive about these things) (but I would be if I realised, I'm just a bit slow on the uptake), but there is still so much more to find, and I've only just found this.

So - yes! why I came to this site - because I had encoutered a glorious revolution, revelation in me, through the imagination, role-play and spanking of a good man - finally meeting someone who was not only into BDSM (which is not new to me), but also joyously, frankly, happily and very, very enthusiastically into it. And into me. And into me being into it. All my little supressed subby feelings came tumbling out big time, oh my, and I went through a very, very frenzied patch. And found this place. Initial reaction: cries for help, understanding, comfort, information - all freely given. Next reaction - hang on - this is a bunch of people having FUN! and very often being FUNNY! and, my God, wow, there is a not inconsiderable and lively literary community here too! Wow wow wow wow I can write again, and share!

Why I stay - well, see above. Met fine company of fun folk, who seem to be remarkably tolerant of garrulous newbies flinging themselves around wildly with no control and are even actively encouraging. Still expecting someone to slap me down at some point (or is that just wishful thinking?). But, oh, so good to be able just to be myself!