C is for cum restriction

[~hellish one~]

My recent experiences with CR, along with another suggestion from Woogs, ~grin~ have me here posting sort of an update on how CR affects me. I had posted before about how CR had become a routine thing for me lately. My teasing schedule has been pretty consistent and my body eventually became accustomed to the teases. Don't get me wrong, they still kept me on the edge and close to cumming...leaving my pussy aching and throbbing for release. I just didn't realize that my brain and pussy were being programmed to respond the way they did.

Without going into TOO much detail ~wink~ I'll try to explain. My teases were set at certain hours...sometimes hourly...sometimes every other hour. I know this seems pretty intense, and it was. It was hard work, remembering the tease...making sure I wasn't late. But after awhile it started getting easier. It still took a lot of determination and drive to complete my tasks on time, but I was more than eager to do this for him. Then, one day, he threw me for a loop, and said I was to stop all teases until further notice. To my complete surprise, I just about panicked. Part of me was relieved for the break, but another part of me was freaking out. It wasn't until the first few hours of being "taskless" that I realized why I felt so uncomfortable about it. My mind and body had been programmed to be ready for a tease at the top of the hour. So, even though I wasn't supposed to tease myself anymore, I would find myself still keeping an eye on the clock. There were actually a few times that I literally got up to go complete a tease, before I realized I wasn't supposed to do them anymore. Another thing that surprised me, was the way my pussy reacted to the stop in teases. I'd gotten so used to being turned on and wet from masturbating...that when the top of the hour came about, my pussy would still get wet...without me even touching myself!

It has been 3 days now with no scheduled teases, and I still catch myself sometimes waiting anxiously for the top of the hour! The urge has lessened over time, but is still there. During the 3 days I've also worried that I would basically, unlearn, all this training and when the teases started back up, I would be back where I started...forgetting times and being late for tasks. ~shaking my head~ I never thought I'd say this but I am actually grateful that my teases are to start back up Monday morning. Even though it is torture, (what would you expect from the Cum Nazi though? ~grin~) I love the tasks and my body wants to get back into that routine....I can feel it. I was assigned a different type of task this morning and I was ecstatic. I can't stand being idle...so at the first mention of a task this morning, I immediately became wet and squirmy and watched the clock...anxious to begin the task. I was just so amazed at how my body and mind was able to be programmed in such a way...without me even realizing it, until after the fact. It's such a wonderful feeling to know he has that much control over me. I just thought I'd share this experience with anyone interested...even though I'm sitting here blushing like crazy.

Now to answer a few questions I noticed in the thread...

i would love to try this but we have a small baby, as well as a 7 year old that gets home around 3:30. So, if there are any mom subs, how have you dealt with teasing with CR and having kids around, and was it do able or did it cause more grief then pleasure in the end?

I can empathize with you here because I have 2 small children. (7 and 3 years old) Doing the teasing tasks can definitely prove tricky...especially with kids around...and especially when you are doing the teases as much as I have been! I have always just found a private place where I can be alone for those few minutes. Whether it's in the bathroom or bedroom...it doesn't matter, just as long as I can get those few minutes of privacy. Naturally there are going to be times when you just have no way at all to obtain said privacy, like when you are driving, or busy with one of the kids. It's just one of those things you have to deal with. I have updates that I send in regards to my teases, and if there are ever times that I am unable to complete a tease, I always make sure he knows why. You just have to work around life is all. And to answer your last question...the pleasure in the end...is always worth it for me.

What is the secret of stopping?

I have done anything and everything within my power to stop myself from having an orgasm during CR. Of course, no one is perfect, (although I will always strive for that...perfection) and we all make mistakes. I've accidently cum before and it petrified me. There was just no stopping it that time. Naturally I was so disappointed in myself, but he was able to look past the unauthorized orgasm, took the entire circumstances into consideration and gave me the positive support i needed at that time. There have been several times that I've caught myself during the beginnings of an orgasm and the way that works best for me, is to stop masturbating immediately...squeeze my legs together as tightly as possible...and take several deep breaths. Heck, I've even gotten up and started walking around the room just to try and stop one, once!

~glancing up at all my rattling on~ oops...hadn't expected to say that much.