First off, I am not insulted in anyway because of your advice. I think it is honest, fair, and offers a very rational perspective.
Hmmm. It sounds like you folks are the voice of my conscious. Yes, I think this is one of the reasons why our meetings have yet to begin with any "play" time. I have tried to rationalize my significant other's infidelities as a good reason to do this- but alas, I have been unable to really find any ethical grounds that will help me sleep at night. My relationship is a mess and has reached the end of it's time- I cannot deny that- my sig. constant infidelities are no excuse for my testing my own moral grounding. I'd also like to say that I know how it feels to be the one getting screwed by a partners cheating-
As far as introducing my sig. to this lifestyle- NO. He is in no way interested in it- I have already hinted at it and his reaction was one of disgust. Selfishness has always been his "thing" and after his initial reaction, I would not ask him again. It was hard enough to bring it up the first time. In addition, I can't stand the sight of him- would you- if you knew your partner had other lovers? If anything, I think next meeting with AMO will be held to discuss that if we are really going to pursue a 24/7 relationship, what are we willing to do about it...I already know his answer is to move forward and be together. Thank you ....I am not very assertive and part of this stems from my "submissive nature.." But I can tell you this- This is REALLY strange because my new found lifestyle has me actually making positive changes in my life- changes I never thought I could assert myself to do- I think that's odd considering it's the "sub" role I fill. But, in public, my friends and family have noticed, I am a much more open and confident person now- I find that soo odd.
Yes, I think it's time for a change- I think Amo is just the last straw- but this has been coming for awhile. Besides, If I don't dump the current man (trust me, he has it coming!) how can I ever turn those hot and heavy fantasies about a good, hard, spanking (the kind that will leave my bottom red and stinging)while tied to a pole, into a REAL (goody, goody ) hot and heavy scene.....with a mature man who knows how to treat me...hmmmmm....
Thanks guys- I still have alot of things to learn-