Yes it does. In fact, it makes a lot of sense to me. You're not alone, either. And you're not the first person I've talked to on these forums that didn't know how to balance their high-powered career with their need to submit.

First off, don't feel like you're an oddity because you are the "boss" at work and you feel the need to submit in your own time. Many people ar ein the same situation as you are, and not all of them are capable of dealing with it, as many do not even know of their submissive urges.

Since this is an issue of your own mind, I will say that you probably need to get in your own head and figure out what it is you want to do and what you need to accomplish it. All the advice I can give is to let yourself go. Give up the control you normally enjoy and learn to accept control being held over you.