Wow!!!! The responses to this thread are fabulous! If only I had read them when I first started in this lifestyle.

If I may add just one little thing... when I first started, it was like I had a dual personality thing going on, and actually it really helped me sort my feelings out. There was tehya my submissive self... and then there was my "day" person (Mommy, worker, provider, etc.).

Until one day I realized that the two had become one. Now I can easily slip from one to the other (almost always). Or perhaps I don't really slip from one to the other but rather, I can be what I need to be at any given time.

But I have to agree, I only truly became comfortable with all parts of me, when I learned of the strength it took to allow myself to be submissive. To give in to the natural way I felt, and trust someone with it. Its so much more than wearing your heart on your sleeve... in my submission I feel totally exposed and raw, and it takes great strength to allow another to see that, to experience it, and to control it.

I truly hope in time you find your balance!

Master's tehya