I am not one of those that was always Dominant my whole life, I tended to more see to others needs before my own. Additionally I felt a need to perfect whatever it was I was interested in. If it was being interested in bicycles or cars, or nature.... Whatever it was, I did what I could to understand to the best of my ability what it was I was observing or partaking in. So when I married my first wife, I did everything I thought I could do to make her happy. It was never enough. I was routinely told how poorly I was doing whatever I was doing. Never received any kind of emotional support from her. I knew I didn't like how she was treating me, and when I exited from that life, I made sure to look for a woman that would be subservient to me, in the same way my mother was to my father. Not submissive, just deferred and let me be the man of the home. In my quest I figured out that my wish for this kind of woman also aligned with the porn I enjoyed. So I began a search for a woman that was submissive, and called herself such. The rest as they might say is history.