Quote Originally Posted by redlioness
My problem is that in the vanilla world I am a strong, capable, and independent,but that is not who i want to be. I have found this lifestyle a little more than a year ago and have enjoyed learning as much as I have so far, but because of who i am in the vanilla world, it is hard for me to make the transition in my private life. I need to understand how to surrender, submit totaly. I am viewed as difficult becasue of this.
Who I am in the vanilla world does not sit well with true dominate men. I am in a realtionship and was given the task to find this out about "surrendering via TPE" before i can continue in the relationship.
I also know that if i do not find this out in time (there is a deadline) that this will help in any future relationship.
Does this help clarify what i need to learn?
i got two engineering degrees, a BEng and an MSc hence my job will be mostly management, got another interview tomorrow , but that doesn't mean that i am someone else when i leave master's house. sounds weird to me to split vanilla and lifestyle. you either are sub or you are not, not part-time i think.