I can relate to the feeling. I've always wanted the "more" of relationships. Finding the right one isn't easy. Hell, it can be exhausting and furstrating sometimes. But surely it's worth the effort to keep trying. At least that's what I convince myself of anyway! Somewhere, she's out there. And when I find her, it's going to be mind blowing.

lily:
"Up until very recently, I was convinced I could never find it all in one person. Or that if I did, that I didn't deserve it.

But now I know better. On both counts."

Well hon knowing you as I do, I could have told you that. Especially the second point.