Domme Rapists?

[dynamicbuttler]

Thanks for answering my questions... thanks a ton. There's just this problem though. I think by BDSM standards, some would think I'm sick. Flat out ill mentally. I was going back in my head to the time I was cuffed and cried... even to the fucked up experience that traumatized me from bondage. All the stuff- the most horrific things I've experienced. I'm begging to view things in a more and more masochistic way... These things are starting to excite me. I want to delve so far into my masochism that I'm screaming in pain, doubled over and crying, not giving consent. I want to experience the deepest depths of degradation, and I want to wallow in shit. I kind of lied, okay? I am turned on by female rape: Even if she's obese and smells like shit and i shit my pants from the pain or get sent to the hospital and nearly die. I know I wouldn't want it then, but the thoughts of how id feel afterwards are starting to interest me: It'd be the blackest, bleakest, most fucked up sense of vulnerability and self loathing. That time I freaked out from being cuffed, I realized I WAS experiencing sub drop: And thinking back, I like it. I want it again.

SHADOWFOX, I know how insensative i sound. I AM sorry about what happened to you... it's just that the crappier i feel the more comfortable i am. I just want to be brutally raped, and i know this is an appalling opinion, but i was just wondering if it's happened so i could fantasized about it. i feel wrong for that, and i don't feel very normal at all.

[Ruby]

Thanks for answering my questions... thanks a ton. There's just this problem though. I think by BDSM standards, some would think I'm sick. Flat out ill mentally.

Ah, don't be so hard on yourself. To each their own. My kink may not be your kink, but I will defend your right to have your kink. I may not defend your right to perpetrate your kink onto another.

I was going back in my head to the time I was cuffed and cried... even to the fucked up experience that traumatized me from bondage...That time I freaked out from being cuffed, I realized I WAS experiencing sub drop: And thinking back, I like it. I want it again.

That is very good to know. That you want it again.

What is it that you truly want?
To experience sub drop?
Submission to another's will?
To be raped - truly raped without consent?

Many, many people get off on rape fantasies.

Why do you think the "bodice rippers" of romance are so popular? Or Luke and Laura on General Hospital?
Guy rapes girl, after she decides she liked it, loves him, so it wasn't really rape, was it? They get together and live happily every after. (The answer of course is that at the time, it was rape. She said no and meant it. )

And many people get off on rape. Check out all the non-consensual stories in the BDSM library. They wouldn't be there or read if people didn't like them.

Then there's reality.

If you really want to be raped, then is it rape?
Or is it wanting to be subdued so you can submit?
Humiliated so you can revel in it?

When I read about the domme who "forced" you do to things you didn't want with another male, that showed a great deal about what you crave.

If you are actively seeking a domme, knowing what you want will help you receive it and her to provide the experience for you.

A word of caution, let's not confuse fufilling your desires with physical harm. I've known too many subs who have ended up in the hospital because their "owners" didn't know where to draw the line. Your ongoing health and safety is your responsibility, too.