Thank you for your posts. I appreciate them a lot!

He did call, I apologized for hanging up. Said he forgave me, but his
tone never wavered. Sounded like he was still angry. I asked if he wanted
to say something (give him a chance to vent) and got nothing. I asked
why his wall was still up if he forgave, and I've decided that I'm leaving him
alone for now. He has to tear down his own walls.

Normally, he is very sensitive and caring. I would never say he isn't. Just
that right now ~ well, maybe you are right, maybe we are both on edge and
I'm just the one showing it more.

Thank you for the comment about being a bad sub. I never want to be a
bad one. Your compassion/understanding is very much appreciated.

(I just miss him so much right now)