When I started on this journey, I swore pain would never be a part of anything I would do. I feared the pain, and quite frankly could not wrap my mind around actually enjoying pain, or deriving pleasured from pain. It was so completely beyond my comprehension.

*grinning* But times have changed, and I have grown and learned much in this past year.

Canopus started out so very slowly with me, and with things that I would not even assiociate as being pain play... things like twisting nipples, clamping them, pegging them, etc... Moving right on up there to slapping them til they turned all shades of colors... *yummo* But I think the most important factor is that he always associated it with receiving pleasure... either by me masturbating while he would torture my nipples, or using other toys to bring extreme pleasure along with the pain. Almost to the point that I could no longer establish which was pain and which was pleasure... they began to blend together... and this is the way it remains to this day...

Now I am learning how to make floggers and even coming up with suggestions of things I would like Master to try on me. The point I think I am trying to make is... Pain just for pains sake is just not enough for some... and really isn't the picture of your slave crying from the pain and writhing in the pleasure you give her at the same time so much more thrilling? My guess is she will gleefully drop to your feet and thank you for giving her that, and in return imagine what you will be receiving!

Master's tehya