Some of mine I could keep this up for a long time

[Sir_Russell]

To all that posted or email their supportive thoughts

I had expected to thank each one of you individually but the wishers were more numerous then I expected so please forgive me for not doing that.

As a way to thank you all I will give you an insight to who I am.

My Mom was an alcoholic and chain smoker, she became a very bitter angry person for quite a long time. I grew to hate that person but she was my mom so I did what honor required. I took no joy from visiting her or from seeing that she was properly cared for but did it anyways.

Not proud of it and it would take a lot to explain how her increase bouts of madness affected me, how it was that she would believe anything bad about me or would dream up things and pass these rumors and fantasies around as if they were fact. It hurt my carreer and cost me and my family much more then that.

At the service looking at her photo from fifty years ago, I remember the woman that I did love, her then kindness and her nature that so help to shape me. I stood and gave an impromtu eulogy about that woman not the one that had caused so much grief.

Now, I will focus that woman, and will grieve for the woman that passed so many years ago.

Thanks for listening all

Russell

the pixie will now represent that Mother of my youth.