A good thread to start jiggy...smiles



People automatically think of abuse
as something ouside the lifestyle,
but they are far from wrong.
Abuse happens everywhere, even
in this life we choose to lead.
As a victim/survivour of abuse myself
I know exactly what it feels like.
You loose all faith and trust...
especially in yourself,
and it takes time to rebuild something
that once was.
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Here is my Story:
A few years ago I had a mentor, who was also a very close
friend of mine, and he asked me one day if I would be kind enough
to help him out. I said sure.
Met him and his submissive and some guy who my Mentor had
taken under his wing to train
and we all got along just fine.
My Mentor asked us both to bend over a
spanking horse and we took out positions.
The time had come for this guy to be shown how to flog his submissive.
My mentor showed 1st with his submissive then the other guy copied with me.
All was going well,until My mentor and his submissive sat
back and watched me and this guy.
1st was ok...
gentle warm ups with foam flogger then getting harsher.
This guy had told me a safe word and agreed that this
should be used if i felt the need to.
them to my horror he grabbed a plain leather paddle
started to wack me with it 1stly over the buttocks hard
then over my back.....
then desided that wasnt enuff so he grabed a riding crop...
wack wack wack.
By this point i was crying...yelling to stop
"whats the safe word whore?"
"I cant remember" im crying.... wack wack wack.
my mentor freaked and tried to get this guy off
but with his spare hand he grabbed a very thin bamboo cane....
wack wack wack right across my kidnies....
by this time i was howling screaming stop but
he just carried on and on.
my Mentor went barmy and finally grabbed him and the cane.
And i collasped to the floor with my mentor's submissive crying oh my god.
I do not remember much after then....flash backs come and go.
like my mentor shouting to his submissive.....
go run a cool bath with plenty of salt.
I also remember being carried up the stairs with
my Mentor whispering im sorry im so sorry.

Next thing i remember properly after that was
waking up wrapped in a towel on the sofa.
it took a few days to recover and i could not sit for weeks.
we never saw this guy again but turned out he
only wanted the thrill of being in control.
From what i was told after, my mentor literally threw
this guy out after placing a blow into his face.
I still bare some whelt marks now that will never disappear...
scared for life.
but i live to tell the tale and i still enjoy the
life that has been chosen for me,but am more cautious now.


That was not my 1st case of abuse.
Back in July 1989 i was raped...............
I also left an abusive marriage at the beginning of 2006.