lily you were right... i've been with my husband since i was fifteen.

thank you both for the comments and advice. i agree with you both as well.

i'm just so frustrated because indirectly my worst fear was realized, just not in the same way i feared. i was so freaked out to take the bipolar disorder meds because i feared they would change me. but instead i stopped taking birth control and ended up changing. granted, most would not say it was a bad change, especially going off the way i described it. but it's change none theless and it's always hard when one of your fears are realized.

so yeah i'm just frustrated and scared.... but in a numb less intense way.... *growls and stalks off*