Quote Originally Posted by sullied
The statement of offering myself for penance comes from the simple fact I believe in corporeal punishment, even outside the bounds of BDSM.
There's a Freudian slip if ever I saw one. You believe in corporal punishment, but you say, 'corporeal'. The punishment you are giving yourself, though, isn't corporeal, it is spiritual.

You are making yourself out to be morally at fault for not being there for her at a time when you weren't responsible for her. This is obviously not so. Are you thinking that this bad scene wouldn't have happened if you'd made her your slave earlier? Or that it still would have happened? The first is playing what-if and can never make sense. The second is lack of confidence in your own moral sense and needs some deeper therapy than we can offer here, I think.

I feel for you, sullied. Not everyone can be as moral as they set out to be. I've been there too and can only say, 'Be better next time'.

Spike