Originally Posted by
AzraelCoburn
I truly thank you all for your comments and advice. It is rather complicated to explain really. This was not really a net relationship but a real time one. I am uncertain what it is that causes me to act in such a way... but I know I want her, and want to be the one who breaks her. Yet then again as people have always stated... I have indeed always had a problem with wanting what I can not possibly have.
As for my dominance... Yes it is true, perhaps this whole thing is just putting me in a series of doubts. I know it is not the factor of what I do or how I handle subs. I am quite confident in everything that I do now. I am just curious if any has ever, you know, been through a likely situation. I mean part of me wonders if an early retirement would be for the best. Perhaps wait until the time comes along again to take up the whip. It is dreadfully confusing really, I hate to admit it, but this is almost like a high school crush drama scenario. At least that is what I keep telling myself. Oh well...
Once more thank you for your comments, and please keep them coming. Your help is greatly appreciated and held with the utmost respect.
Azrael