Quote Originally Posted by ^firefly^ View Post
I'm constantly learning, looking for new ways to push my pain threshold.
It's also interesting to note that it takes a lot for me to make myself hurt--I don't know if I'm anticipating it in my head or what--but the "ouch!" factor of self-punishment is never as great as it is if it's someone else's hand holding the whip, so to speak. Does that make sense?
I know I'm rambling and much of this is highly subjective. It's only my personal point of view/opinions, so feel free to comment or disregard as you see fit.
I do agree, firefly, it's really not easy to find ways of inflicting pain, putting yourself to torture that will measure up to someone else putting you through pain IRL - and especially not stuff that you can leave going on for sometime, hitting you again and again, while your hands are free to do other things (like, typing, or bound behind your back). I wish it were easier, but much of the time you have to sort of add on a bit with your imagination, building it into an image or a scene. Whipping yourself is fairly useless to me, it's not one-tenth of the real thing, plus you can't be in position. I'm eagerly on a quest for finding more effective ways of self-torture....