Ive read both your replys with interest and a bit of heart searching.

Ive got a clearer understanding. Tainted Johns advice made me think, yes youre right I do like it. It would be more of a punishment if he were not to cane me until I achieved. Took me a lot of time sitting to admit that to myself.

Mobius as always youve made excellent points. One, Yes Im $150 dollars better off! Fantastic! Shall we celebrate. Ah perhaps not, credit cards repayments...!

I now understand a Dom would deeper role. Thank for your advice. And I will try to be careful.

Happy Holidays xx