I agree with dynamicbuttler. I have a thing for athletic, toned women who are larger than the average women. Kind of like the woman in you're pic buttler.

Not muscle monsters but naturally big athletically toned women.

Thighs!!!! oh my Buddha! strong female thighs. Oooops control yourself boy!!!!!!

The women I most fancy are usually to big for most guys tastes but for me.......sigh

I fancy so many women, whenever I have had a one night stand with an amazing sexy strong woman that I have pursued I have found them totally arousing from seeing them, to dating them, to kissing them all the way to the bedroom.

Where it stops and they surrender or expect some kind of loving romance to unfold and I think.....What no games?.......I'm in charge????

Aren't you going to throw me around? treat me mean and tease me??

Suddenly deep raw attraction has changed to embarrassed, confidence crushing and awkward apologies and excuses by mr floppy.

After that a worrying pressure sets in as I realise I have to perform or the embarrassment will be too much to take and she will feel rejected.

What follows is usually a need to get as far away from her as I can, to somewhere safe where no one expects me to be a man and I can be a sniveling little helpless sub without being judged for it.

It usually culminates in me ignoring her phone calls and constantly worrying about bumping in to her.

It's strange how such a potentially wonderful experience turns in to a knightmare in a matter of seconds.

And my vanilla friends just think I'm gay because I avoid women... They would never understand. How do you explain something like that????

It's funny with the sexual Dommes I have been with it is the otherway around.

I have yet to find a sexual Domme who I'm physically attracted to.

I have only found dommes who are older than my mum or very fat indeed so I only get hard when the dominance starts and lose it as soon as the dominance ends.

A wicked catch 22 to be stuck in.

I used to be able to have vanilla sex and really enjoyed it but that was when I always thought there was a slight possibility that something adventurous and exciting might happen.

After all my years working at this noticing that the chances of vanilla women doing something exciting are slim add the submissive habits I have formed and this has made vanilla sex almost impossible.

So I hold out hope that I will oneday I might meet a sexually Dominant woman I'm attracted to, then heaven awaits.

I sometimes think I should try hypnotherapy to overide my submissive habits and inability to find vanilla sex exciting.

My urge to be with a woman and the sexual attraction I feel is so primal and so deep it hurts allot when it goes unfulfilled and I see women I desire so much in the arms of another.

I know it sounds silly like a gay trying to cure himself but I so enjoyed vanilla sex in my mid 20's and the sense of mutual love I had when I had vanilla girlfriends I have never experienced since.

I am seriously thinking of some kind of invasive therapy to allow me to bring back my vanilla abilities.

The thought of being able to pursue all those women I adore and follow through on my desire is a very very very tempting and wonderful thought.

And due to the needle in the haystack situation with sexually dominant women I think it might make sense to make my sexuality fit reality rather than striving to make reality fit my sexuality.

If I can restore my vanilla abilities then I can still search for my Domme but enjoy a normal healthy sex life in the meantime.

What do you guys think??????