Stressed

[tessa]

So besides the fact that I have to wait until the middle of July to find out if I have cancer, and the fact that my aunt just got told that she has cancer...

My prayers are with you. ~hugs~

o and put aside the fact that my Ex(my first and thus far only) Master is in love with someone else, and no longer wants to talk to me I think I have done really well to not go out and drink until I can't see.

You have done marvelously.

Is it me, or are most Doms like that. One dom, whom I have yet to meet, and probably wont even told me that LTRs and Love are something to be found only in "Vanilla" relationships.

Um, not sure who you spoke to, but what he said is bull. While I'm quite sure loads of Vanilla couples love each other silly, the love shared between a Dominant and submissive is, in so very many ways, stronger, deeper, more pure than lots of Vanilla relationships due to the trust and communication that must exist. My advice? Don't waste your time meeting that one.

Another told me that D/s and BDSM have nothing to do with one another. And yes while you can have D/s without all kinks can you have BDSM without the D/s????

Don't meet up with this one either, ok?

Then there are the ones who only want sex. If i wanted that Id go to a club.

If I wanted that, I'd get my vibe. Saves the trip to the club and is probably a whole lot more satisfying. And you don't have to get dressed up for it.

I don't know. I think I am about to give up. I'm sick of falling asleep alone,and waking up alone. I know most of you will say Im young to want this so much, or that I just have to be patient and it will eventually happen. I don't want eventually, I want now. Even if not a Mr. Forever, a Mr. Now who lasts longer then a month or two would be good.

He will show up when you least expect it. Don't give up. He is out there, waiting for you.

[Jensen036]

I am sorry to hear your bad news. I hope that things get better for you.