There are a few other desires such as this that I would love to be used against me that I don't have the courage to pursue otherwise. I'd have to be forced into them... and I want that so badly!

Of course, you're right redEva. Communication is vital to any relationship. How can someone properly gauge action or reaction if they don't know the circumstances or stimuli involved? Absolutely correct. Thank you for being the kind voice of reason against my fears.

Thank you also for the story suggestion. I've often written to my Dommes and included this fantasy or that fantasy. It's always been something we've discussed that I knew she liked though. I've yet to enter new territory using that route. Perhaps that's the perfect avenue. I will consider it. In the meantime... any other suggestions? I usually feel that different perspectives are invaluable.

Though I'm still going to wait a bit before taking any action to let my Mistress know of wanting enema training. I honestly don't know what's involved. I only know what's in my fantasies. But perhaps that's enough.

Maybe I should just make changes to my checklist (which is used as part of our contract to state limits and what not), hold off until our contract is up at the end of this month, and hope she notices before renewal? But that seems so petty.

Gah! Why does this have to be so difficult?