I am immobile under her caress for a moment…then her tongue traveled across my skin, my imperfect skin and the tears fell from my eyes. How could I expose my body to anyone when they are instantly reminded of how damaged I am? Her tongue seems to pause…to actually trace the lines across my abdomen and sides…why was she doing that…what possible pleasure could she find in my scars.

Whip her…look at the little bitch, yeah, scream for us whore, scream…hit her again, again…harder boys…rip her open…let us see the blood fly…

I crushed my eyes shut as once more I was back, tied on that tree, a young, scared teenager…semen and blood still running down my legs from the brutality of earlier that day. But…this bitch, this woman who sat astride me seemed to be lost in an almost admiration of my suffering. My eyes flicked open once more as her tongue purposefully followed the lines the cord had torn in my flesh…sparking deep sensations within me that I felt unable to differentiate between…were they pleasure or absolute horror. I arched my back as she brushes her lips across my skin from one side of my abdomen to the other. Her gaze reaches for mine and I see something there I finally can read clearly, its recognition…a shared understanding of something dark within and instantly I understand that she was a woman on the edge.

As the storm built and crashed around the building the light would flare and the room light up. The lightening came quicker and more urgent. And suddenly she gasped…as if a knife had been plunged between her breasts. She stares at me, into me, seeing far beyond the surface of my eyes…into my soul and deep into my memories. Fear now swamps me…what is this woman, dear god, what is she. The tears that rolled from her cheeks, across her breasts and then lower only deemed make her more powerful for she seemed to be on the edge of an abyss that screamed insanity but…something else too. I register her whispered words, "forgive me", and feel the heartfelt honesty behind them. A deep dark fear sweeps across me as I see the black fire that burns through her gaze. I struggle to find the strength to resist once more but I am paralysed by my own morbid thirst…she dipped towards me and I braced my body and closed my eyes…