Well I did it...not with all the "This isn't working out" speech...but I canceled our meeting which was to have been today. After reading all the responses from everyone, several times over, just to make sure there wasn't one bit of hope in there...(and I guess seeing it all written out in black and white helped too), it just finally hit me. He does not care about me, he is not considerate of my feelings, he is actually rather rude and selfish and he isn't even good at being dominant. Plus he never even went down on me!!!The most wonderful thing in the world and he never even did it!
I've never had that problem with any other man in my life...so I have decided that this guy has some major issues.....and I really don't want nor do I have time for that in my life! Plus I deserve better! So I called him from work during an unusually quiet afternoon (Tuesday actually). He answered (probably cause he didn't recognize the number!). I asked, as I always do, if he was busy and got a very stern Yes! So I told him my car was in the shop and I couldn't make it! He asked me to call him later that night when he would be home, but it got super busy in the ER and I didn't get off work till 2am! So someone was watching out for me, because I didn't get a chance to call and he didn't leave a message (and still hasn't), so I was not tempted to call! I was actually pissed off all over again because he didn't leave a message, which has since proven to me what I have already said! Now I know you're all thinking...well that doesn't solve anything Ltp! But... I plan on writing him an e-mail and letting him know that this time I'm done. I'm not gonna be nice or put any "I hope we can still be friends" crap in there. I'm just telling him what I feel.... I'm not getting what I need and I don't want to see him anymore. Let him figure out the rest! Or do ya think I should not write? Wouldn't that make me rude as well? So that's where it stands as of right now, and I do feel alot better knowing that I wasn't feeling badly about something for no reason! Thanks gang!
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ProjectEuropa: Your absolutely correct Sir! He has no integrity!!
Nightstriker: Thanks for the bear hug Sir! But I think I will skip the doom!!!![]()
Pandy: When I first joined and started reading here on the forums, I read about you and your PT Dom. I responded, (I think) cause some of this had already started for me then!! I'm very happy for you and proud of you! You are now the teacher for those of us that have been through an experience similar to yours! Thanks for all the great advice hun! I very much appreciate it, especially since it brought up bad memories for you. And I just love the pun on words..."Time heals all wounds and time wounds all heels" Nuff said!
Dngnkeeper: Your sunshine is due to arrive this weekend!! Thank you Sir for the wisdom and the warmth!![]()
Babysub: Thanks hun for the hugs, sweet thoughts and advice! :yourock: Love ya!
midnightsky: Thank you Ma'am for your kind words...your right, it's not worth the risk!
slavelucy: As always you just seem to get it! Charming....he was that! Notice I said "was"!!! Thanks for the hugs hun!!