Well, it has been just over a week since I sent the letter and received the reply. I have not received anything further from him, and I'm quite sure I won't, due to his pride. Or it could have been what he was waiting for....a reason to be rid of me. Although, I guess for him this all came out of nowhere since he actually felt he was treating me well.

It has indeed been a very rough week for me. As many of you warned me, I do miss him, and it does still hurt. I know in my head I did the right thing, but in my heart, I have done nothing but question myself. He made me a CD once, and every time I hear certain songs on it, I miss him even more. Never told y'all that did I? So yeah, he could be nice to me, but I needed more than he was willing to give. So that leaves me where I am now....listening to songs that remind me of him, remembering his touch (whether gentle or firm), the times we laughed over something silly, his cat...yep....I had even fallen for his damn cat! This is why I don't believe in true love, at least not for me. I know risks have to be taken in order for a relationship to begin and to flourish. But every time I take those risks, I seem to get hurt. I wonder why it is that the people we fall in love with don't feel the same? Or why people that fall in love with us, we don't feel that connection with? Is it always this hard?? And confusing?? I am sure this could start a whole new thread, so I'll just go into my thank you's from the friends who responded last. Forgive me for taking so long to thank you, but I've been so busy wallowing in self pity!

Valkyrie Thank you so much for the well wishes! I like the way you think! Relationships should be symbiotic and thank you for reminding me.

TG "Dumbass!" LOL! Thank you Sir! I needed that!

Nightstriker Thank you Sir for thinking I am above that! And for wanting to kick his ass!

nibbles What can I say sug?? Your post had me ROFLMAO! You nailed it! And you put some things in perspective for me! And the subscription thing...OMG...I'm still laughing over that one! Thanks sug for being my friend and for helping me out! Don't worry, I'll be bugging you soon enough, to either bitch or cry on a shoulder!! Thanks hun!

Pandora Thanks again Pandy for your continued support throughout this whole thing! You are my inspiration! Thanks hun!

Slavelucy LMAO at Wanker!! Thanks for being here for me during such a difficult time! Even though I have said I don't think true love exists for me; you and Wontworry give me hope! Thanks hun!

Ranai You wished me a light heart...so very sweet and kind of you! Thank you for that and for worrying that the kick ass faction would upset me! (They didn't though!) It shows how thoughtful you are! I appreciate you and your kindness!

acissej Thanks for taking the time to respond to my thread! I appreciate it! And I may take you and the others up on the ass kicking

Magister Filed Sir! Still working on not looking back though.

smartasskitten Thanks for the hugs hun!! I need all I can get! I've missed seeing you around! I will remember the J.S.N.T.A.W (just say no to ass wipes) for future reference!

spirit Thanks sweetie for being here for me! I appreciate you and your kindness and am so happy to count you among my friends!

e.b. What can I say love...I am a mess! But seeing your post helped alot! Maybe by spring break, we can both take a break and have lunch again!! I would love it!! I've missed ya!