Do not worry so.

It’s understandable to at first not be sure about things and even nervous. For instance I use to always be controlling and rather dominate as a Leo but I never realized how great it was, always felt like I was missing an aspect of my life that I could not name. At times I’d see on TV or movies if not read in books how someone was taken, dominated completely and I always loved it but I thought it was just a bit of stimulation. A few times I even wondered if that was right to think as such. It was not until I really looked at the situation I began to understand and it was not until I started to act on my desires and whims that I felt “free”. Since then I have become completely confident in how I’am, how I do things and the fact I can give another so much pleasure and arousal by my actions is a welcoming thought.

Just take it a step at a time and you shall do very well. Find someone who is willing to train and educate you properly and you shall get all you desire and much much more.