Quote Originally Posted by Katmandu
Well, after (finally!) reading this thread, in my 'catching-up for my long absence', I just wanted to point out 1 thing.

Actually, there is a lot I want to add, but everyone else has already said it in one form or another.

Key word here, is IMO: RELATIONSHIP From everything I read that you claimed he said and did, then reading his 'good-bye' to you, this was NOT a relationship. This was a one sided affair (heehee it was an affair after all, you are married!) on your part, and he simply used you as a "dumpster", to fulfill some small part of himself.

Sounds to me that, he simply got tired of the maintenance. So very glad, honey, that you stuffed his garbage into his own dumpster. Hang in there, toots! Time really will heal this raw wound. And, the more you explore in places like this Forum, the more people you will meet, and someday, be able to find what will fulfill YOU!
And yes, BDSM makes for very, very strong relationships. It is a lot of work on both sides, but WOW!, worth it in the EXTREME!!!!

Thank you Katmandu! It is always helpful to read another's opinion! Everyone here has been so helpful!!! So now I need you guys to tell me...WHEN will I stop thinking of him and wanting him!? I know what everyone here has said. I know you are all right! But my heart is not listening! It is telling me to write him. To apologize for being rude to him. For never telling him I love him....is that why it didn't work?? OMG...this is the hardest thing ever to deal with and go through. My heart constantly aches for him. I have written a letter...BUT I have NOT sent it. Oh I want to...but I haven't. I just feel like a part of me is missing. So more advice please...I know I need to just get over it. But it's only been two weeks!

In your hands now....oh most wonderful family!! Thanks!

~Ltp~