Jade's Master's thread

[Jadetiger]

So are you saying that your body betrayed you not to use an over worked cliché.

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.

Just out of curiosity you said that the butplug hurt and you had bleading etc Did you use enough lubrication? Not that I am an expert in butplugology.

The butt plug is size medium and I put a ton of lube on it. I image the fact that I was tied in an awkward and painful position kept me from being able to relax. I have only used it twice before. The accident was compounded by the fact I could not control how fast it got inserted.

How about posting a pic of the ofending object. so the judges and see how big it was?

Picture attached

Maybe Dracubius will abduct you and try varing sizes of butplugs on your vertual self

Please keep him away from me. LOL I want to play with Lord Mobius and Lord Chuck. Dracubius is not my kind of Dom. Now if you want to remove a branch from your family tree just have Dracubius play with Jade. You can always tell grandma it was a work related accident.

Nightstriker, you seem like a teddy bear to me. Excuse me a teddy bear with whips.

[Ruby]

Jade, honey,

What a big learning day you've had. So sorry to hear about the emotional roller coaster and happy your sense of humor is back.

The hardest part for me about experimenting with my likes and dislikes is finding things out about myself that I might not have ever guessed or even thought of. In theory, we can all say, no, I wouldn't like that or sure it sounds great, but then reality comes crashing in and whoa - it's often a surprise.

Forgive yourself and do take some time to think about what you liked, what you'd do differently and what you don't want to repeat.

"I really think there should be a place like DMV for BDSM toy operation..." - Perfect analogy.

Big hugs and kisses to brave, beautiful you,

Ruby

[Jadetiger]

Ruby,

Yes it was a big learning day for me and you are right I was totally taken by surprise. Master and I chatted for a while this afternoon. This new knowledge about myself is pretty scary but I am finding it kind of exciting too. We decided for my own safety that it would be best if I let him decide how we precede. Like you he says we should take it very slowly.

I did realize today something Master has been trying to get me to understand for quite sometime and that is that I am not alone. I have people who will help me whenever I need it. That more than anything is the real lesson I learned today.

My only task if I chose was to stay off the computer, take a bubble bath, put on a comfy robe, eat something and watch a little TV for part of the night. I decided to obey. He also suggested an early night, which I believe I will obey that too.

It is amazing how a very bad day can turn out to be one of the best days of your life.
It doesn’t happen often to me so I will always treasure this day and the people who made it special.

[craftygirl]

*big hugs* for you Jade

[spirit]

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.

i can totally relate to this Jade...i'm dealing with the same feelings myself at the moment....stick with it, you're an inspiration...hugs

[Mobius]

I would not call it betrayal. It is just my mind could not enjoy it. I still can't understand why my body responded like it did when my mind was saying just the opposite.



The butt plug is size medium and I put a ton of lube on it. I image the fact that I was tied in an awkward and painful position kept me from being able to relax. I have only used it twice before. The accident was compounded by the fact I could not control how fast it got inserted.



Picture attached


Please keep him away from me. LOL I want to play with Lord Mobius and Lord Chuck. Dracubius is not my kind of Dom. Now if you want to remove a branch from your family tree just have Dracubius play with Jade. You can always tell grandma it was a work related accident.

Nightstriker, you seem like a teddy bear to me. Excuse me a teddy bear with whips.

Maybe it was the pic but it does look pretty big to me. Cuto's to you for taking it.

[Jadetiger]

It seems I have busted a capillary in my eye. It started in the far corner of my eye and I didn't notice until I got home from work. It really would have been nice if someone had mentioned it at work. You can image my shock when I looked in the mirror. The blood is all the way to my pupil now. It seems to have stopped growing. Well I am crossing my fingers. I looked like a vampire in a movie who only has one eye filling up with blood.

And I have no idea how it happened. I have not had an injury to my eye.

Here is question how long before it goes away? I need to know if I should by a cute pair of sun glasses to wear to work on Monday.

[Nightstriker]

I have no idea as to how long it will take to go away, but you may have done it because you may have been rubbing your eye a little to much. From to much abrasion, the capillary may have ruptured.

[wannabeXopsed]

Ah, Jade I hope you are feeling better by this evening, you have been through a lot and have been tested. I believe you have surpassed a huge mile stone in your journey just relizing and validating your emotions. That is a big step in a finding how far you will go to please Master. I was once told that "Master knows what is best for me"

You have given him that role so let it be, and know that the next task will come easier to you maybe, and believe you haven't failed in anyway. Sounds to me that your Master is caring and very proud of you.

Crying is good for you to release those emotions and then you can go forward with a fresh outlook.

Again big hugs, and loving thoughts to you!

T

Ps I also think the these products should come with more instuctions than,
WARNING: This is a novelty product. But look we have more in different colors and sizes. ( I went shopping today) to buy a new butt plug, looked for instructions NOPE not one word about how to use. Not to mention care for these products, Thank goodness for the employees that work there, as embarrassing as it is, to look at someone and ask how much lube do I need or do you think it is to big Oh yea one last thing, I have to use special soap?

[LBoolean]

It seems I have busted a capillary in my eye. It started in the far corner of my eye and I didn't notice until I got home from work. It really would have been nice if someone had mentioned it at work. You can image my shock when I looked in the mirror. The blood is all the way to my pupil now. It seems to have stopped growing. Well I am crossing my fingers. I looked like a vampire in a movie who only has one eye filling up with blood.

And I have no idea how it happened. I have not had an injury to my eye.

Here is question how long before it goes away? I need to know if I should by a cute pair of sun glasses to wear to work on Monday.

This has happened to me too, I went to see the doc about it and he said as long as it does not get bigger or hurts it will go away by itself... it did after about a week.... even with both eyes back to normal I still scare chlidren and small animals, go figure...

L

[Jadetiger]

I have no idea as to how long it will take to go away, but you may have done it because you may have been rubbing your eye a little to much. From to much abrasion, the capillary may have ruptured.

Nightstriker,
I was rubbing my eyes a lot the day before this happened so you have the solved the mystery for me Sherlock Holmes. Please take this as a great compliment. I am a great fan of detective mysteries.

Ah, Jade I hope you are feeling better by this evening, you have been through a lot and have been tested. I believe you have surpassed a huge mile stone in your journey just relizing and validating your emotions. That is a big step in a finding how far you will go to please Master. I was once told that "Master knows what is best for me"

You have given him that role so let it be, and know that the next task will come easier to you maybe, and believe you haven't failed in anyway. Sounds to me that your Master is caring and very proud of you.

Crying is good for you to release those emotions and then you can go forward with a fresh outlook.

Again big hugs, and loving thoughts to you!

T

Ps I also think the these products should come with more instuctions than,
WARNING: This is a novelty product. But look we have more in different colors and sizes. ( I went shopping today) to buy a new butt plug, looked for instructions NOPE not one word about how to use. Not to mention care for these products, Thank goodness for the employees that work there, as embarrassing as it is, to look at someone and ask how much lube do I need or do you think it is to big Oh yea one last thing, I have to use special soap?

WannabeXopsed,
My master was extremely proud of my obedience and the completion of the task. He was not happy that I did not stop when I hurt myself. He also said it was his fault that it happened and not mine. I remember telling him he was a great Dom for me and that most other Doms would have sent me into hiding along time ago. I have been thinking about it and I am not an easy sub to work with. I now realize my inability to show him my whole body hinders him from ensuring for my safety. He has been trying to use logic, patience and even command to help me over come this but none of it has worked. My master is not my husband and my husband is not in this life style. As illogical as it sounds keeping my body from my master makes my husband the true master of my heart. This has allowed me to explore my needs and desires without having my heart laden with guilt.

I am sure my master is trying to figure out how to proceed with this limitation. His pleasure comes from my willingness to serve and watching as I discover news things about myself as I take my journey into submissiveness. It was suppose to mentally and physically arouse me, but enduring extreme pain was not part of this task. Like my master I have some things to figure out. My safety is a great concern for him and I need to help him so he can feel confident that it will not be an issue in the future. I believe my master’s slave will be adding a couple of pretty corsets to his toy collection. This should give him the access he needs to ensure for my safety and still keep the promise I made to myself.

I agree with you on surpassing a huge milestone here and I am lucky to have a master who will make sure I take baby steps in exploring this side of myself. I can image his pleasure when he finally gets my body and mind in sync and has me orgasming from my pain as well. I am making myself hot just thinking about it.

This has happened to me too, I went to see the doc about it and he said as long as it does not get bigger or hurts it will go away by itself... it did after about a week.... even with both eyes back to normal I still scare chlidren and small animals, go figure... L

LBoolean,
It would seem I will get to but a pair of sunglasses after all. Thanks

[Nightstriker]

It was not a problem Jade, though I really would appreciate it if next time you use a N as opposed to a K when spelling my name.

I shall take the compliment for it is not every day that I get called Sherlock Holmes.

[Jadetiger]

It was not a problem Jade, though I really would appreciate it if next time you use a N as opposed to a K when spelling my name.

I shall take the compliment for it is not every day that I get called Sherlock Holmes.

Sorry I fixed it. I put Knightstriker first and removed the wrong letter when I thought I was fixing it. I must be having trouble seeing this morning.