Let's really get to know each other!

[smartass kitten]

you are really summin, Kats.

(This is also something I have been fighting lately, which is why we decided it was time to step up my submissive training.....to help me learn to keep the proper frame of mind.)

Just out of curiosity, do you find that it's working at all?

Cuz i was wondering if the mindset is something you have, or something you can keep. if you know what i mean.

[Katmandu]

NO! I'm not sure where the submissive desire comes from. I've been extremely dominant all my life. A "pushy" broad, so to say. All I know, is that :

1) Master Barton is definitely 'more man than me'. (I've always been so agressive, that I swore I wouldn't be with a man other than for a quick lay until I found one 'more man than me') :smackbum:

2) I really get off on both pain, and having all 'control' of myself being taken away and used by someone else.

3) My mental state, being as I've agreed to be His sub, is something I have to constantly fight. (I instinctively try to dominate in an adverse situation) :-[

4) As such, I need constant reminders of who I am (His slave), and my position in our life together (His submissive). :help:

5) HeeHee, As "strong" as I am as a person, I'm obviously very weak when it comes to maintaining my (submissive) status in life.

[wannabeXopsed]

Kat,

I love your experience and now it puts together the pictures Barton posted, I could feel how the whole scene was put together.

I feel like that is what I am looking for also. a "more man than me" I always thought I had to be aggressive, better, smarter and tougher to prove I am a strong woman with desires but that I can also submit. It just goes to show, that I might be right and continue to search to be all of it wrapped in a nice package, and will be able to serve as you do, with the reminders of who's "more man than me"

Thanks for sharing
T

[craftygirl]

Last night I went to the clubhouse for the Saturday night play party -- as I usually do. I've been a member of this group for a little over a month now, and I've been going and watching people play, and socializing, and having a really good time. But you know, watching is one thing .......... and I wanted to play.

There's one lady who is one of the core members of the group. I've watched her play with probably a dozen people, and I decided that I wanted her to give me my first flogging. So when we were in the kitchen last night and she looked at me and said "you're not playing", instead of smiling and making an excuse I said "Are you busy?"

*grin*

So we went back out to the main room of the dungeon, and I stripped down (to my thong! IN FRONT OF A BUNCH OF PEOPLE! Yay me) and she got out her suspension cuffs and I got my arms clipped in to the St. Andrews' Cross. The thing about D is, that's kind of her corner of the dungeon and when she plays, it's front and center. So here I am, practically naked, head resting in the x of the cross, arms up, and I start giggling.

She rubbed my back a little bit, and told me what she was going to be using ..... though, sorry folks I forgot the first toy she hit me with. But she would get a few gentle strokes in, and wait til I'd just gotten relaxed, then WHACK! WHACK! and I'd jump and squirm a little .... then she'd go back to lighter strokes, or come up and rub the area she'd just hit. I remember focusing on keeping my head down and BREATHING. Breathe breathe breathe. Of course, on those big whacks it was easier to remember because I would gasp in hard. *chuckle*

After a few minutes with the first toy, she changed to a Dragon's Tongue. She was talking to me, telling me about each toy and what it could do -- and then she showed me! The dragon's tongue was neat because it stung a little bit more than the first one, and I liked feeling the way different types of leather hit.

After a while with the Dragon's Tongue she changed again to a kangaroo cat, and oh I think that was my favorite. By this point, she was making nice criss cross v's across my shoulders and I was gasping a lot but enjoying every second of it. stroke.....stroke...... POP! POP! Very yummy stuff.

After she got my shoulders and upper back nice and red with the cat, she switched to what we call the evil bunny flogger. It's just soft rabbit fur, and it felt sooooooooooooooooo nice after the cat. Just soft and snuggly, almost like being hugged. I could tell by the sound that she was taking big full arm swings with it, but it isn't something that can really hurt even like that.

She and a friend took me down from the cross, and I guess it was about 15-20 minutes overall maybe that I was up there. But when I sat down, I noticed that I was pretty well gone and slurring. The only time I've ever slurred like that was after really really good sex........ LOL! So she sat me down and snuggled me a little bit, and had someone bring me some water and let me come back to the world. Then before I got completely dressed, she suggested I go out to the ladies' room and look at my back, so I went out to the front entrance (topless!) and looked ................. mmm pretty red. Nice x marks.

Anyway I cleaned off the cross and got dressed and got a snack after. I am so proud of myself for stepping up! My shoulders are still warm this morning, and I'm still in a happy bouncy mood. *giggle*

Kind of tame compared to others, I suppose, but WONDERFUL for me.

[Barton]

Not tame at all. In fact an involved scene. Thank you for sharing it with us.

[Ruby]

Kats and Craftygirl - Thank you so much. As I read your stories, I wondered if I could have handled either session with as much grace as either of you.

I am not a pain-slut in real life. Little bits of spanking/whipping are exciting to me and get me off, but when we move into the big owie pains, we stop. Reading about it is a huge turn on, yet I think the "the evil bunny flogger" is more my style. (My Master T isn't into pain, though he's very good at torturing me with too much pleasure. A different kind of pain to be sure.)

Kats, you might argue that you glared. Well glaring would be the least of it for me at this stage of my submission to T. You didn't use your "safe words/signals" and you let him punish you for your mistake. Pretty darn impressive and it sounds like you were more in the sub state of mind that you give yourself credit for achieving.

Craftygirl, it sounds like the session was wonderful and the before, during and aftercare excellent. Tame? Well if you believe the stories in the BDSM library, yeah. In real life, quite wild and exciting.

Thanks to everyone who gives us these detailed insights into your lives. One of the best things about this lifestyle is that there are so many flavors and types of experiences to have and share. It might be awhile before I can convince Master T to give me my fantasy flogging, but I can enjoy the sessions vicariously through these forums. So can you. Who's next?

[craftygirl]

Craftygirl, it sounds like the session was wonderful and the before, during and aftercare excellent. Tame? Well if you believe the stories in the BDSM library, yeah. In real life, quite wild and exciting.

It was exciting for me, and that's all I care about truly. And yes, I felt very well taken care of the entire time. That's one of the things I really like about this group, that everyone involved in the scenes is very attentive to taking care of the players. And often, other people who weren't involved in the scenes will provide a little snuggle, a bottle of water, and whatever else is needed. We've even had discussions in the email group where someone will publicly thank someone else for a scene, and a few folks will ask how they are doing the next day. The whole atmosphere is very open and caring, and I really enjoy that.

Oh oh one of the other super neat things about this ....... D has been in the scene for quite some time, and she knows that I'm new to it, so she really took an educational approach to the session we had. When she was telling me about each different whip, it was partially a tease to what was coming, but also a lesson on different types and how they hit and what they do. Very very nice, I thought.

I'm so doing this again next week ..........................

[slavelucy]

Kind of tame compared to others, I suppose, but WONDERFUL for me.

Tame?! infront of people?? No way, it's great!! And the way you tell of taking it was sort of..personal and lovely, thanks for sharing it!

Yikes! Lucy, you too? I thought I was just being a wimp. You know: "The mind is willing, but the body is weak".

ROFL! Er...no, it's not just you...believe me!

sl

[wannabeXopsed]

Last night I went to the clubhouse for the Saturday night play party -

Kind of tame compared to others, I suppose, but WONDERFUL for me.

Wow, not tame at all, you have gone where i want to and have yet to find the courage to do so. I am currently looking to connect with someone here so that i might find the same experience you have had. Congratulations, keep us posted on the next adventure you have, I have really enjoyed your experience.

Thanks, hugs

T=WB