I watched the others playing on the parasails and other things. Again, I hung back, unable, somehow, to open up to anyone.

Luckily, no one seemed to notice my presence and I breathed a sigh of relief.

I watched Amy laugh and play; my heart constricted with longing for her. How had this come to be?

My weakness had always been beautiful men, whom I could shape and mold according to my siren's song.

But this was different. I couldn't control her. Even if I wanted to, the song didn't work on human females the way that it did on men.

And even if it did, my singing voice was gone. The Captain had taken it from me that night when he had made me the sex object...the victim...

I was still so ashamed of that....and of my actions that had come before. I deserved the punishment...I knew that....but I was so bereft without my music.

I turned to look at the Captain. He was sitting there, smiling at the antics of the others with affection in his eyes. When one of them would shriek with laughter or do something daring, his lips turned upward....and he watched them, carefully.

I began to understand that we were so much more than just playtoys to him. We were his little family.

Saddened and lonely, I prayed that someday I would be honored enough to receive such a look from him; instead of always being on the outside looking in.

My eyes turned to amy once again. She was so beautiful and so fearless despite her dimunitive size. She seized things, shook them up and grabbed ahold of them, refusing defeat. I admired her greatly.

My eyes filled with tears once again. Turning, I prayed that no one would miss me, and went to my cabin where I lay, in the dark, thinking of things better left unsaid.

When the others had all gone to bed, I snuck outside again, cleaning up the mess left during the fun and celebration. I scrubbed everything again, even the foredecks, feeling somehow as though my actions would absolve me.

I spent time at the railings again, watching the dolphins play a bit.

Then I headed to my cabin again, surprised to find Amy there waiting for me.......